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NCC 104 Challenge Quest

2005-03-18T15:21:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the NCC 104 challenge quest... so i didnt go sch. The nite before tat... me went hq frm sch to settle some aero centre stock taking.. den i met daddy latiff outside amoy quee camp, he sent me home den i faster bathe n pack my stuff while he go fetch mumi raps n mr johnny, den we went JB (ya.. johor).. went to city square there.. do some shopping... den me n raps chose dis very nice button shirt for daddy... he tried on den we were like... wa!~ look so young... force him to buy.. hahas!~ After tat we went to some restrauant (chinese halah de).. eat peking duck (very nice ar!) and venison... den used a coupon... end up 4 person eat onli 84rm... cheap sia.. den we continued for some shopping.. me n raps bought the same shirt at giodano.. (same colour some more)... hahas!~ den had a drink n head back to S'pore. Den so stupid... causeway jam.. at tat time some more... had to book in by 2359 at amoy quee. We 1146 den managed to clear all the custom.. den daddy drive very fast sia... speed like wad like tat... 130km/h... overtake here overtake there... so scary. Somemore his eyesight at nite not gd. Den lucky.. jus nice managed to get in on the dot... 2359.. Thk God.. n Thks to Daddy's superior skill of driving... hahas.

So yest... early morning gt up prepare for the challenge quest thingy. I was in the 1st event.. cycling cum MOC.... look easy.. but was damn xiong. I was in Air Team 1... the first runner was zhenghua's male officer.. Tom Ho. Team2 de was also zhenghua officer.. but female.. Angela Tan. We start off being the last 2 teams of all... somemore tat Tom Ho really very the slow. Cycled off first also come in after angela. Lucky my team 2nd runner was SCLT Fauzi. Airbourne de... very fit.. so he managed to overtake team2 and alot others even thou he was the last to set off. Den my turn.. by the time i ran from the parade sq to the 1st MOC already no strength le. den do all the obstacles... at the 6th one... climbing up the rope.. i hang there for quite some time.. no more strength to go up.. after struggling to pass thru all the MOC (total 10)... den run off to cycle.... already abt to drop dead. It seems tat the bike is moving me n nt me moving the bike. Den CLT Yueyun.. managed to overtake me. After half the round of cycling... i almost vomitted my guts out... lucky nv eat breakfast if not sure vomit out de. Den i pressed on... and speeded my way back... immediately fall flat on the grd after i gt back there... had to rest very long... the moment i try to stand up den giddy abt to faint like tat... gt blackout for a moment or 2.... rested very long... den can stand up n walk to mph to find mich they all... ask herto buy 100plus for me... den so much better le...

Coming to the last runner... the Sea team1 gt in first.. den east team2 and west team1... den Air team1 gt in 4th, followed by Airteam2. combined result? 1st is West, 2nd is East, 3rd AIR!!, 4th Sea, 5th Central.

Den the other activities carried on.... Archery, Paintball and Relay Run. Relay Run alot of NV gers runnin... den the AIR was very gd... alot of ppl paced for each other.... encouraging them to run... even my daddy also run wif dunno how many nv gers... of cos nt the fulll 1.5km per person la... but abt 1/3 round like tat.. The overall Results... Air gt 4th... not bad liao... last yr also same result.. but next yr... we are gonna BEAT THE SEA!!! they gt 3rd... also same as last yr..

Oh ya... me also bullied my 'boss'.. CPT Gary cum Comm Air cum Uncle Pek. hahas! He so cute sia... i made him run ard to look for panadol for me... =P.... somemore he also gt Run the 1.5km... i think Air DC is the onli Dc tat ran sia... hahas... Den now... me whole body breaking anytime... coughing n snezing somemore den my stomach will hurt. Even my butt hurt! Later still gt encounter... aiyo.. now headache... think i better go rest rest first....

miss bev...

2005-02-12T23:39:00.000+08:00

Just went to read bev's blog.... the 2nd time of the 28th Jan entry... just felt my heart breaks.... my 3 month at yjc... had allowed me to noe dis cute little friend... but now... i'm in poly... she... sufering in yj... n i just cant be wif her.... how i hope the times in S01 nv ends.... not 1S1... not 2S1.. but the times when i'm there wif her.... the S01 times... but i noe... life goes on... n it's already past a yr since tat time... Now i always wonder... is the choice to go SP the correct one? is the choice of leaving yj the correct one?? If i hv continued in yj.... i may h been able to help bev in studies... and we will be promoting together... if i hv continued in yj..... she may not feel so left out now... becos i can totally feel... wad she is going thru... the loneniness... seeing others going to well together and u alone... seeing others counselling someone tat u think is not worth to... hving ur friends tat u think u are so close wif... to jsut look at u in a diff way.... thinking that u belong to them but to them u are not.... all this.... is so familiar to me... or rather... i'm already numb to it...

How i wish i was there when she jst feel so lonely.... so left out... but i cant... becos i too... do not belong there.... i do not belong there anymore.... now i do not even noe if i will still ever remain in their hearts.... will they miss the S01 times just like i do? or will they onli remember 1S1 and 2S1... and think that s01 nv existed?

msg for some idiot out there...

2005-02-08T01:58:00.000+08:00

i've lived for so long... first time... kanna backstab... no bad huh... hahas... so happy. hahas.. it shows tat i'm on a higher ground izzit it? i lead by example... nt by command. I ask my ppl to to move a mountain by moving it first. This is wad i call.. the new age leading.. shouting at everything and corporal punishments no longer work wif this new generation. I'm no humble to take up the post of 2IC n aeromodelling OIC? well he's just jealous. I despise the 48th intake ppl? well he's jsut afraid tat i despise him the same way as he do to me. but y i bother?? A true leader takes backstabs as encouragement, and forgive..

Just like Jesus... who was sent to a place of laws n traditions.. but He came to change things around. He changed the water that is used to wash the surfaces to wine tat bring joy into the body. I strive to lead.. not to command robots wif the traditional ways... but to lead wif example... and to discover new talents. I strive to not make them follow because of rules.. but of the values in their heart. This is then... the true leader of the new generation.

U may think... shouldnt i be angry? well... i wouldnt. i forgive.. n will even pray for him. If i'm nt high enough, he will nt backstab me. If he is tat good, he would hv been given dis job dis task. As the bible says... "Love your enermies"...

MISS MICH!!!

2005-02-02T00:22:00.000+08:00

aiyooo.... long long time nv update my bloggy liao... as usual la... lazy n busy..

Afternoon me saw mich at northpoint wif haiting... aiyo! both of us miss each other so much... when saw each other le... run over to each other n give a REAL BIG TIGHT HUG!!! Some more it's like... she just smsed me tat early afternoon... aiyo... really really miss her and gt so much to catch up with her. Gd... Friday can see her le..

Currently very busying wif:
- Organising the aeromodelling ex-co... so i will not have to do all the work.. if not can die of overwork n overstress..
- Trying to make a change in the sch training.. Talk some sense into the 48th CLTs, write out a proper role and duties of CLTs, and how sch training should be ran. Train the Part C the relevant skills as a spec.. if not when wait till they turn spec, there will be no more chance.
- Study for coming tests... preparing myself ahead b4 the semester exams comes near...
- Learning and helping my mummy to learn the guitar...

Will nt be updating my blog so often le... from the things tat u see i hv to do.. Hope u all dun mine eh? hehes... look out on my msn nick if i updated...

God is between us..

2005-01-24T00:13:00.000+08:00

Phantom of the opera very nice sia! lolx... so masmerising... but hv to watch it wif a correct mind... n reject going to the angel of music cos tat is Lucifer.. the Satan. Somemore watch until 12mn den left the cinema... wanted to watch it at 7pm de... but sold out... den watch the 9.25 one lor... sit the first row somemore... lolx...

Celebrated Roy's bdae just now... after SOL1... den went to PS eat pizza hut.. aiyo... my stomach so full... for the whole day.. till now still very full ar! Den somemore gt cake... of cos all cannt eat liao... den all took a small piece, gave half a cake to some vjc ppl who r having their class gathering there... den they very the cute sia... after we went back to our sit den they sang bdae song to roy.. lolx! so fun sia... they so cute...

Finally God spoke to me.... for i noe tat i've found the one who can simply help me, bring me, and accompany me to move closer to God, to grow more in Him... =)... n God is just simply in the centre...

Happy Birthday to Roy!! Pray that God will use you as a mighty instrument, pray tat u will continue to grow in Him, and grow in your faith. Pray for blessings over u... so u may go forth and bless others! In Jesus name i pray... Amen!

broke my shades...

2005-01-18T23:48:00.000+08:00

sux ar! last nite hand itchy.... went to try to tighten some parts (but is loose cos of the crack)... den the lens broke. sux lor..

so i went to sch wif my small small eyes.. den went for guitar class wif my small small eyes. lolx! after tat ask roy to pei me go PS to buy new shades. shouldnt have use up tat voucher yest. now can be of use..... look for the new shades for a real long time... see until going blind still cannot find one nice nice de... den i gave up.... frm inext me so 77th street see... den finally found one nice nice de...but haiz... there goes my fifteen bucks frm my bank... jialat... dis month going to eat grass liao... dunno y no money.... how sia... =(..... hopefully next month can start wif a more stable alllowance... if not i'm going to eat grass for one more month... cannot take it liao... see my wallet... onli left 8 bucks for the rest of the month..... see my bank... $310... can onli use until $300... den handphone bill hvnt pay, also include next month's transport. HOW?!!!!!!! wan to cry liao ar....... so stress....... go on diet also no use....

den spend my whole evening at plaza sing lor... shop shop walk walk, chat awhile wif roy's classmates.. very funny ppl. lolx. so tired today.. slpy... going to slp le.... but had fun =)

morning bev also sms me... i miss her so much... miss the times at yj when we study maths and chemistry together.. n phys too. had training together... pon maths tutorials and econs together... now to think tat she's there alone... i just wan to go back to the times at yj... maybe if i had continued to stay in yj... she might be doing better wif the times we study together, explaining to each other. just had tat moment of regret choosing poly... me also wan to wear sch uniform... me dun wan to hv to many many breaks tat is like for hrs... me dun wan to travel for 1 whole hr to sch.. me dun wan to be in a class tat is so boring.. me just wan to be back to the times when i sit at classrooms n lecture theater wif my friends... drawing at each other's notez... have fun, training, and studying together... how i hope i'm at yj now...

my daddi also started his course for 2 days le... now just like me.... go sch listen lecturer talk. hahas. miss him so much...

aiyo... miss so many ppl.... i just wan to give everyone a big hug right now... ='( ...

Xin Fan...

2005-01-17T23:00:00.000+08:00

today me had a gd but lame talk wif gary.. haha! den found out he christian.. but one tat had backslided until the longkang, but still is.. (tat's wad he say.. lolx)....
Den went PS try to use up tat 10 dollar voucher... sia la... so diff to use... cant find anything tat i can use on cos in my mind me also dunno wad i need or wan to buy. Den me use it to buy the nike bottle lor... hahas!

heart feeling kind of... troubled? dunno how to say... dunno wad to do.... dunno who to consult... but just pray tat lord u will come and take over dis life of mine, guide me n lead me to where u wan me to be. But... can i talk to u? u? or u? God hv given me the ans tat he wans me to hold... but i noe... i'm struggling...

1st training...

2005-01-14T23:26:00.000+08:00

today's training... total tragic. before the training... me already assign the CLTs to do the individual things.. the USM can tell me he assign the ppl to do the things liao..

Things tat i felt was the prob to the whole training:

- CLTs not doing wad they are asked to do! The email of their roles was sent to those CLTs coming down... ask them to prepare wad was to be done. End up... can come n tell me... "Intersection games no need CLT to take charge la! Ask a spec to take charge can liao!" Bloody hell... think they so clever... experienced ar?! Onli experienced as Master wad! Big deal! Think u every clever den come take over as DO la! see how u do! End up wad happen?! I need to tellt eh specs wad to do! I need to take charge of the whole intersection games myself and tat guy can jolly well just sit there n do NOTHING n noe NOTHING of wad is going on!

- First thing when the CLTs see the cadets then scold n scold n scold, shout shout shout for God knows wad! Time table was also emailed to them! At 2.45pm.... Can still ask the Part C to do dunno wad fish! Den when i go to him n ask him "Can u let me start my muster parade?!"... den he can still look at me "Start lor"... Den me ask him "Den u still ask the part C to do duno wad?!".... den he still can ask... "I onli give them 2min".... wat the fish! Wad time already n can still do dis thing... Fish off la!~

- Shouldnt the DO have the overall control and authority over the whole training?! I dun feelt at I'm given tat during the whole training. What ever the fish the other CLTs are doing i do not even know! Orders given to ask u to take charge of certain things den u jolly well take charge! Dun think everything the spec will do the spec will do. IF the spec can do everything... den wad the fish are the CLTs for?! Wat ever tat the rest are taking charge of they dun even noe wad the fish is going on wif it! If wat ever the CLTs wan to do can just do and do not have to report to, den can jsut make the DO die off. wat the fish is the DO for when everyone else is doing their own thing?!

- All thinks tat the DO is wad?! Super ar?! Can run one man show. If without all the CLTs around.... making a big mess and giving unneccessary orders around, i think i can do a much better job! All the newly passed out CLTs... think they all every clever... all come back act big only! Pls... DIS IS JUST UR FIRST TRAINING FROM THE DAY YOU PASS OUT OF TAT BLOODY COURSE!! Dun come and act big in front of me... because to me.. u are still just a newly passed out CLT who still noe NOTHING abt the CLT role. Your learning Journey had just began... where as I have already started half a yr ago! Dun think tat a CLT role is just like a spec... let me tell u.. IT IS A TOTALLY 2 DIFFERENT ROLE!! So dun think u have lead more den me when u are a spec... because tat was when YOU ARE A SPEC!! In just half a yr more and i'll be getting my SCLT... where as u will still be a junoir CLT.... so dun need to act big, act clever... because if u think you are... den u can jolly well take over the role as NVAU CLT 2IC and Aeromodelling OIC!!!

The specialist i shall not say much... cos all are still new... but there is really alot of things to induce to them and to teach them and let them noe. But every serious... there is just a problem wif the whole way things work. DO should not be runnig a One Man Show wif the specialist.. and the specialist should also not be the one who is come after-ed by the DO, but to come seek the DO for any doubt. I think the spec are also not told to do all this.. You cant expect someone to just learn to swim the moment u throw him int0 the water rite?! But however... some ppl who are still using floats like t0 pretend as if there are none.

Respect is not earned through shouts n scolds and yelling! Tat is just making them FEAR you n not RESPECT u. Whether the person respect the rank or not... it is their problem because if they dun, u cant do anything abt it either. But to earn respect, is not just to make ppl respect the CLT rank... but to make them respect you for ur doings and ur character. Do not think tat someone who doesnt scold and shout does not earn the respect, but let me tell u... it is those tat need to use shouts n yellings but yet ppl still do wad they are asked to, tat is the true of of respect tat one should earn. N not to make ppl fear u for who u are so tat they will do wad they are asked to... because tat way... no one will try their best to do. no one will help u to do because they dun respect u... because they jsut want to stay away from u....

It is always those tat says they are the best, tat they are the worst.. because there is no humility to allow room for improvement, because they already think tat they are gd enuff and nth needs to be learnt.

I will not blame the specialist the most for dis tragic training... but the CLTs... because the CLTs are told to take care of their own individual role way before time, and it is their responsibility to ensure tat all the part of their prog is well planned and well prepared... if the CLTs are to ensure tat... The training will be running very smoothly wifout the DO needing to run up and down the whole sch!

I'm sick...

2005-01-10T23:58:00.000+08:00

Haiz... me sick ar... down wif cough n headache plus flu. Didnt go SOL1 on sunday... today also nv go the morning lesson... afternoon went for test but end up test postpone. Den went to see doc... gave me 2 day mc.. but tml cannot dun go GEMS leh... hv to find myself a grp... haiz... but... NO VOICE HOW TO MAKE FRIENDS?! kaoz! jialat liao la......

still thinking wan to postpone tml's guitar class or not... to friday. like tat... den me got LOA for sch... den can go down to nvs for the interview of the Part As. Hahas. See how first lor... now like tat... no voice... tml go guitar class also cannot sing... maybe i should... postpone to Friday nite.. den can pei mummy. hmmm..

Feel so terrible now.. long time no sick liao. now running nose... argh... y my GEMS class like tat de?! Throat so dry... but drink alot of water liao cant drink anymore... getting late also... think me go slp liao...

Miss you alots... : Beverly Sharon DaddiLatiff Michelle........ long long time nv hug ppl liao.... hahas.... just feel like hugging u n u n u... =P

CCA Open hse

2005-01-08T02:57:00.000+08:00

Tired tired... now still working for the cca open hse thingy. Just now was in sch since 12nn, to 11pm ar! first time so late den leave the sch (camps not counted la). Burning n burning VCDs... total 200 to burn... Me, Daddi Latiff n MUmmi Raps burning... me burning the slowest sia. Daddi burning at 48X, mummi using 2 labtops... den me onli one comp at 24X...I no need to slp liao ar...
Now all slp liao... left me onli... still burning... i just hate burning cds..

Nowadays i dun seem to be able to understand mich. I felt tat she just have so much in her mind in her heart tat i do not noe. Cant seem to be able to communicate wif her. Dunno wad's she thinking. Wan to talk to her, also dunno wad to say. Haiz... Mich ar Mich... can u just tell me wad to do? Just miss the old you so much. Many times in life, u will experience alot of things tat u just cant stand and just cant take it. But u just have to persevere, n not just give up. If it's just over some matters and u give up just things tat u wan to do or planned to achieve, you are going to be a failure in life... give up on every little task giving to u. When things are just so hard to pass by n to hang on to, have trust in the Lord, He will bring u through it all. If u just give up, where will God be? Let Him carry you through life...

CCA Open hse... Lord i just pray that u will bless us... Lead ppl towards us Lord.. Give us strength, give us wisdom. For Lord because of 10 righteous, u will spare the city of sinners. So Lord just bless the unit, because of those in here tat are blessed by you Lord. Thank you Lord Father in Heaven... In Jesus Name i Pray... Amen...

Now for Aeromodelling... gt the AOR template liao... gt more work to do le... and also datelines to meet le. But being the OIC, i've really learnt alot. Me, a learner frm experiences n not words. So dis is a really great challenge and learning experience for me. Although it also means more work, I believe so tat dis works will be thru responsibility to be accomplished. Being a CLT now also, I too aim tat the Air cadets will be trained to be a Air Cadet. Knowing things abt the aviations, through greater discipline, receiving greater honour, working wif might, soaring to greater heights, and simply better den the rest. Heard i'll be getting the post of 2IC in NVAU, den once again, more challenges and more learning. gd gd... Cos i wasnt given the chance to learn when i was a spec... everything also same old ppl do, same old ppl learn. alot of things tat i do, many i learnt onli at CLT cos or after tat. So nw i wan to learn fast fast... Aim for Outstanding CLT award. Wanna make a change in the unit, in the air core. But will i be able to do it?? i'll try my best... and i noe the Lord will be there wif me even if i just seem so alone. There are just many many things that u cant learn frm the textbooks. There are just many many things tat u cant attain frm good grades. All dis, i've onli learnt once i became a CLT. The satisfaction i've nt obtained when i was a spec, and now, i'm going all out for it (even thou i noe tat i've tried my best too previously... but i will still continue to strive thru a more different and challenging role and authority now given to me.

Not onli in ncc, but also in cell.. tt i'm growing to be a leader, learning to be a gd leader. Being a leader is really not easy. needing to accomplished a certain task, wanting to build relationship wif those under ur charge, and at the same time hving to earn the respect from them. It is going to take great responsibility, great effort. But many of the times... ppl just dun see it. ppl just dun like the way u work.. some will just simply ignore you and some will just think tat they are better. skills to deal wif all this... i'm slowly trying to learn... but now... many of the times... i'm running away frm it... afraid of failures, afraid of embarassment. The main thing tat i hv to deal wif now... will be my fear....

[Wif big roles and authority comes wif big responsibility and humbleness]

Big Task Given...

2005-01-05T21:55:00.000+08:00

Today me very guai... gt listened to all the lectures.. hahas! After sch go bind my notes... den go down nvs meet daddi for lunch at sch canteen. lolx!

Help to do some recruitment stuff... kAoz.. cannot stand the cadets sia... so noisy in the room! messing and playing around wif the rifles all tat... also dunno wad to say.. den Audi not doing the movie den play wif them. i Sian diaoz... just do my own stuff...

Den was talking to Ah Pa.... he told me tat he going to ask me to take over as leader for cell.. for the lower sec. Den going to teach me train me lor. Cos of the complain lor.. if he get caught continuing den there goes his job! me also gt think of tat also... as in... help him to get ppl to go church and cell.. like tat... den is not he call de ma. well... gd la... cannot let the evil one stop us! I'll try my best to learn first n work towards my calling.. work hard to learn to play the guitar to worship God! AMEN!

So now got alot of thing to do liao lor... apart frm sch.. now gt guitar class also. Den got ncc stuff, the whole aeromodelling thing to run, and church, cell, n now a cell to run and to feed His sheeps. But i believe... God will bless me, give me strength, give me wisdom, and lead me through all this in the glory of Him.. Determination and discipline will help me to excel in all areas, and of cos.. wif God guiding me and carrying me through!

So ppl... do pray for me.. do pray for ahpa (mr Chan).. and mich too. =) God bless u all...

Guitar Lesson..

2005-01-04T20:26:00.000+08:00

Sian ar... astro class is getting real boring... was too tired... think cos of the coffee i drank on Sunday den make me cant slp... 3am den slp.. 6am hv to wake up le... slp dept until now... yaWn... still slpy..

Yesterday went watch kung fu at PS wif jason n jian xun... sian... force me to go... hahas... but ok la... quite funny... but crappy also... as expected. Den me meet daddi for dinner... wif Justin Feline Hocksheng n Erwin... went seoul gardens... i think i also nv eat much... just alot of crabmeat.. hahas! Daddi so cute sia... =P... he forgot to tell his mummy he not going back for dinner... den his mum cook... so ke lian... go back home still have to eat... den cos very full liao... just eat abit... den kanna blasted. den wanted to gib daddi a big hug... since new yr day... but... hahas... nvm....

Today was good... not in the morning la. me wasnt able to meet my 05 resolution... hahas... one of them was to no late for class n keep awake in class... but me slpt for the whole of my astro class... boring leh... still hvnt get to noe anyone.... sad ar... sian ar... like tat how to do my grp presentation.... haiz!!! After sch... was good.... me went down to international plaza frm sp... for guitar class.... the place was very nice... very peaceful... full of God's presence.. lesson was fun... learnt quite alot... cant wait till i can play n take over worship sia... hahas!

ok la.... gtg ppl... soon i will show u my new yr resolutions... now lazy to type la.... n need to go do other things liao... slping at 11pm... hopefully. hehe. oh ya... hvnt even hv dinner yet. =P

New yr day..

2005-01-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

2004 is now gone... all things left will be memories of the past, filling up this universe. All the things that had been done, good or bad, will only be left memories. But i will never forget the year 2004... the very important year of my life. THe year that my life had been blinded by darkness... yet someone brought light to me.. and let me see the beauty of the truth. It is in 2004, that I have come to the light, received the light, and shore the light out to many others.. Many important people had come into my life, bring me memories that i will never forget. Still remember the days at YJ.. where i met friends like bev, chia and sharon. They sure had brought great laughter great joy into my life. The day of great excitment and nervousness.. when i receive my O's result and the sch posting result. Days went by and i just got closer and closer to the ppl around me such as my beloved Daddi who i noe will always be there for me. The first day tat I visited FCBC and truly received Christ into my life and was reborned. The first cell.. and the day when i first saw mich... the days of great determination during my CLT cos, the days of great love and the great presence of God during Encounter weekend. The joy that follows when i noe that i have helped many to come to the light, such as my sis, my mum, and Roy. Building up relationship wif many ppl whom i care for, and building the relationship wif God. Just so many things that had happened in 2004.. but i noe all good things must come to an end. A new year ahead, new goals, new achievements, and new things to experience. I noe that i do not have to worry but just to continue to walk with God and He will show me the way towards His purpose for me..

However... the new year 2005 didnt start of well.. it just simply reminded me of the great hurt a long time ago.. but i noe God will be there. It also started of and helping me to noe that Daddi will always be there.. Thanks alot daddi...

The great 2004 had come to an end... and my journey wif God goes on heading towards 2005... Many great things are to be accomplished, many great goals are to be met. But i noe that i do not have to worry because i noe there will always be ppl tat i can go to in time of need. More importantly, i noe that God will always carry me through any tough times, carry me through any obstacles that may jst seem unpassable. Wadever the year 2005 may be... the year 2004 will always dwell in my heart... because it truly marks the many great things of my life. Everyone will have a great turning point in their life journey... and 2004 is when my great turning point is...

Thank you everyone who had brought joy into my life, showing me God's way, bringing me great joy, sharing great experiences, and achieving great things together.
Dear Friends.. no matter wad 2005 may be... i will always be here... Cos i noe... that i have found my great pillar that i can hang on to.

[Good bye... 2004...]

opps...

2004-12-31T01:09:00.000+08:00

Kanna forced to update bloggy... say hi to mich onli den the onli reply i get is "UPDATE UR BLOG"... den offline. diaoz. Nv update bloggie dis few days was cos i didnt even use the comp! Monday come home late, sis using comp play game (MOH Pacific Assault). Tues come home late, sis play game. Wed come home late, sis play game. Today come home early, den get to use.. hahas.. cos my turn to play!

Monday..
sch was boring... as usual. After sch.. happen to meet Eug at the MRT.. den drag him to north view.. suppose to meet daddi there den we head down to costa sands for bbq de.. but den tat sTupiD bertram at 12nn den say cancelled. diaoz lor.. den i msg daddi.. ask him wan me to go sch or not... den he say yes so i go down lor... den help to put up banner, play arms drill.. den me n mich was talking talking.. hahas! den daddi suddenly interupt.. den cos was talking abt healing n stuff la... den daddi suddenly ask.. "huh wad need healing?!" lolx. me n mich faster change topic... den i think mich also very hungry... hvnt eaten anything... den ask "huh... no la... i need to be fed".. lolx. den daddi take out his wallet... take out 10 bucks... den ask us to go buy food n be fed. lolx. After tat... go makan... eee... the mee rebus sux! den after tat.... go back sch.... me n jiawei stayed until 9pm... waiting for daddi... den playing flight simulator; fun sia. as least i can make my plane land smoothly liao. Den went eat swensens... den daddi send me home..... hmm...

Tuesday...
sch was boring.... me couldnt wake up for class... skipped my first lesson of the term.. my GEMs class... calenders n astronomy. Late for my 2nd class.... electrical tech tutorial. opps... n sch went on.... den after sch... waited for Roy for 1 hr... den we go cell together... reach punggol... rain so heavy... den take bus... i made him alight 1 stop ahead.. accidentally... den hv to walk in the rain... lucky rain got smaller liao... but i took his shirt (he was wearing 2 layers)... =P. Cell was gd... damn good... wanted to fall but... cant fall... the force keep on pushing me down but... dunno... my body keep on resisting... den after worship ziyu pray for me... den feel better le... letting the force out.. blah blah blah... dun feel like writin....

Wednesday...
Sch.... boring..... faster finish class... den meet Eugene at yishun... to go down amq for aeromodelling. den he damn idiot... ask him to take money frm mich he nv take.... kaoz. den me got pissed off... cos no money to eat liao... totally no money... den smsing mich... mich tot me angry wif her... opps. ya... den aeromodelling... was good. some of the 48th ppl damn childish leh... wa lau... cannot leave them alone to do work de leh.... end up playin wif the hand drill den destroying my wood and sanding block. idiots sia... but the gers very gd... hahas. gers rulz. Den daddi brought feline n justin to aero centre, to let justin look see look see.... personal inbound IACE sia.. lolx. tat Justin guy not bad la... kind of a cute dutch gentleman. Feline got gd taste... lolx. opps. After tat...wa lau... wait n wait for daddi to come fetch me eug n huda for dinner....w ait at air office..... for 2 hrs ar... wait until i fell aslp. lucky mummi raps finished teh time table stuff at 7pm... if not also dunno wait until wad time... den mummi raps also quite pissed off wif daddi.... leave her alone at north view to do work... after tat.... the dinner at buckaroo.. she really wack sia... the bill was... jaw dropping... 300plus... all daddi pay... for 10 ppl... so poor thing.... den me n eug r the onli 2 tat drank.... had bourbon coke which was kind of strong... den eug also ordered some beer or something like tat la... mummi raps sent me home.. den 4.45am setting off to sarawak le.

Thursday....
sch... boring... hahas. but towards the end... very very intersting la.. lolx. had kfc in classroom during character development.... den me n yee leng start to eat the fries frm each other's mouth. den the guys also play... wa lau.. play until... Randall and Jason really kiss sia!!.... one time liao.. after tat.... 2nd time... for video n photo taking.. lolx. the whole class was laughing away n got so disgusted... but.. really had a very gd laugh.. den the lecturer... cannot take it.. lolx! see his face ar.... like... "wad the hell am i doing here?" like tat... gt real disgusted.. lolx. sure cannot take it de... he our class tutor somemore.. hahas! reach home... den very sian... fixed the puzzle ahpa n ahma gave me for baptism... finished in less den 2 hrs... den play game, online.... den went of for a while... my da jie go n ka jiao chee wei... lolx.... make him damn diaoz... until he say wat the f***... lolx. "Sorry my responses are limited. You have to ask the right question." muahahaha! ya.... den while i was updating dis bloggy... daddi teach me limits... now understand liao... prepared for tml quiz le... hehes. thKs alot daddi!! muAcks!

ok la... gdnite...

Christmas

2004-12-26T13:30:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was Christmas! It was one of my best Christmas ever!

On Christmas Eve nite..
The whole cell was at Ah pa's hse.. Dinner. It was Gd (well... of cos not they cook la..). after dinner we were all watching Lord of the Rings, The Return of the King. Very nice.. the sound system also very the shiok. Den me, Roy, Ziyu, Leehoon.. was like.. waiting n waiting for daddi. To fetch them home, and to Bring me n eug go fetch Feline. After we sent the home, we called mummi Raps to come out for supper later, den she was like.. huh?! Tat's very late supper. I getting fat liao leh! hahas! Den we go see Feline at SparkC.. she look so exhausted. Daddi gave her the Presents... den we go fetch mummi raps. Went to Jalan Kayu to eat Prata... Until abt 4am like tat. Den took the car... went to Upper Seletar Reserviour, Den drive to n fro the road at Upper Pierce Reserviour there. Hahas! Sent Mummi Raps home.. den sent me home. Den Daddi gave me Christmas Present. hehes. (A reebok sling bag & a Hard Rock Bali shirt). ThankS DaddI! *hUg HuG*

On Christmas Day...
I slept frm 5.30am to 12nn... Woke up.. hungry.. den MUmmy cook mee... very nice.. hehes. after tat Very the sian... waiting for time.. den went back to slp... frm 2pm slp until 4.30pm. Den faster wake up, bathe, den make my way down to Dhoby Ghaut meet the rest, den go down to Fort Canning Park for the Christmas Bash. It was damn fun. Starting was watching the team LODI.. den play around wif the snow spray, me n mich went chasing Daniel up and down the hill. But later Mich pang seh me.. me kanna sprayed by him.. hahas! After tat sing song, worship.. the Spirit was damn high! we were like jumping around... shouting our lungs out to the song "One Way". hahas! Shiok... den start to sing slower song, den Ps Khong came, preached. Den Shamini received Christ! Praise the Lord. after tat sing the song One Way again. Jump jump jump again. Den spray spray again.. den sprayed at ms keh.. hhahas! she so cute sia. den pray for each other.. Took the last train home.. no more bus to go home le.. den slowly walk home... reach home at 1am.. faster went to bathe cos of all the foam... 2am den slp..... zzzzzz

Received quite a number of gift dis yr.. hehes.

Merry Christmas!!

[You are the way the truth and the life. We live by faith and not by sight for you. We're living all for you....]

testimonial

2004-12-20T23:41:00.000+08:00

today sch was boring.. as usual. Had comp prog lesson... den chat online... den gary msn me... think i hvnt wake up... tot was zzlam... talk to him wif a not very nice tone.. reached home den i realised.. jialat... hvnt tell him yet.. hahas.

Den me broke liao.. jialat... today buy book.. buy tat dumb dustcoat.. On bus home... met some spoilt english speaking kid... so irritating.. make me cant slp. Reached home... got mood to write my salvation testimonial for the 23rd...... slowly slowly type.... now finished liao.. but is going to edit it until it's perfect (or close enuff)....

After tat... kind of guai la... tidy my table.... make it nice nice... whole nite like... doing abit of house keeping here n there..

Anyway.. not really in da mood to update blog anyway...

"Lord Father i just wanna pray.. tat the evangelistic Christmas events on da 23rd n the 25th will be a good one Lord... I pray tat u will bless us wif great harvest O Lord... In the name of Jesus.. i binD every obstacles and the work of the evil one that is preventing ppl from getting to know U n to receive life. Lord Father i pray tat u will just give each one of us strength n wisdom to carry out the events and help us to speak words of from our mouth.. but words of You o Lord... thank you Lord.. and i pray tat u will just each one of ur instruments to do great things. In jesus name i pray.. Amen."

[Do u know tat u caused great harm to me jsut by bringing up my past of mistakes that i.ve tried so hard to bury away frm my mind... this is not running away from reality.. this is keeping the open door of temptations, guilt, and self-rejection CLOSED]

Friday...

2004-12-18T19:13:00.000+08:00

Talk abt Friday... 17th Dec..

Morning almost late for sch... 6.30 den woke up... go sch... headache... dun understand wad the hell is the maths teacher doing... 11am finish... didnt say bye to him (turn ard he disappear liao).. den rush off to meet mich in town...
Met her at taka... den go heerens buy shades for my contacts... den go AMK meet daddi go Jack's place for lunch.. belated belated bdae lunch for mich... den i go take my contacts... sadly.. need to change... so cant take... den i go home change... den meet daddi downstairs.. go eug hse... see the interview of him n his mum for the nvs recruitment... north view squadron the best man! lolx. so on.. hahas!.. ya den borrowed eug's tie... den go safra for the COC dinner... gd food... gd laugh.. den a whole lot of the nvs ppl go hang out.. go chiong.. hahas! went to long bar.. at raffles hotel there.. den eug ordered for me margarita... not bad... quite nice.. hahas.. den tried his long island tea n bourbon coke... had fun throwing peanuts all ard... lolx. den at 12mn.. left tat place.. den go home... reach home den go POM on my bed, say gd nite to daddi.... den zzzzzz liao..

18th dec sat..

Early morning need to go amoyquee for CLT meeting.... think abit dizzy n tired n slpy due to last nite late slp n alcohol.. den daddi afternoon sms me... suddenly... hahas.. cos he at home... too bored.. lolx. den nv go church lo... couldnt make it.. now going to town to meet ernest liao...be his image consultant.. lolx! funny he... suddenly jio me out also... ok la.. gtg... byeee

[past present future]

damn bored in sch...

2004-12-16T14:00:00.000+08:00

sian man... now in SP... tat self-access learning centre.... suppose to be having a class now... but den tat lecturer onli talk talk for 20mins... n release the class liao... kaoz.... den now hv to wait for 1hr 30min just for tat stupid character development class.... sian!!!

Den was talking to mich on msn... den mich told me something i was totally diaoz!!! Mich told me daddi's reaction when she told her who tat guy is.. kaoz.... pls la daddi.... dun think so far can? lolx!~ Me still wan to concentrate on getting dist for my Eng maths, Computer prog n Electrical tech... hahas!~ so dun think too much... lolx!! So u still hv alot of chance to make me fat... hahahahahhas!!!~~

Sian sian sian... nth to do... just now eng materials lecturer was damn boring...the lecturer also talk so slow... den i buei tahan.... fall aslp.. i realised something also... SP lecturers hv problem pronouncing the V... last time electronics lecturer will say voltage as woltage.. vacuum as wacuum.... den today tat eng materials lecturer... say the word volume... me look at Daniel den we both laugh.. lolx... cos he pronouced it as wolume... hahas! morning the comp programming lecturer... pronounce double as touble... hahas!! jia lat man... no wonder my english getting worst n worst....

Sian leh... character development.... later still need to do up to 10hrs of CIP.... in pri sch.. 6 yrs of Hao gong ming.. den sec sch.. 4 yrs of CME... now come poly... kaoz.... still need to take 2 hrs of character development lec every week... sux la... den now still hv to wait for the class to start...

Christmas is coming!! hahas... Daddi very cute... went Bali bought t-shirt for me... den say wan to wrap it first den give me.. lolx. say is Christmas present... hahas... Daddi i also gt something for u frm Bali.. lolx.. Friday den i pass to u... n ur cam too.. hehes. Tell u a secret also... hahas!~ Ur ChildrenS are going to get something for u too... hehes!~ cannot reject de har...

When ever i look at my planner... always see the date 22 dec... bev flying back frm spain/france... cant wait for tat day... really miss her sia... den i see.... 23 dec... jia lat... the Christmas gathering... hvnt write testi yet...

ok la.. dun wan to talk so much crap liao... miss u ppl... hehes. Love ya mich n daddi!~

[Forever in my heart..]

yawn.....

2004-12-15T23:11:00.000+08:00

Very very tired.... slpy.. yawNz.... had been waking up at 6am for sch since monday.... cannot tahan liao...

The tragedy news abt poh yoke is still in my heart.. in my mind... as i watch all the news on tv and read the newspaper (chinese de leh.. lolx)... haiz.. images still flashes in my mind...

Pass few days was kinda boring.. sch.. den gt lesson cancelled on monday n tues.. den slack ard.. play CS at clementi.. life's getting bored..

today class ended early... 1145... den me no where to go.. nth to do... mich go JB (but end up nv go)... den ask daddi come out... hahas. Go mum mum wif him at causeway point, siamkitchen... the tomyam soup make my tongue burn like hell... finish my whole cup of ice milk tea still burning... den i finish the ice also.. hahas. Den went back nvs... daddi settle some stuff.. wash carpet... den go bras basah shop shop n collect the GIANT banner... 4m by 3m sia... lolx. dunno wan to put where also.. open up i think the car can park on it ar.. lolx!!! Den daddi not feeling well... so went home... send me home.. den Daddi forgot to do something.. lolx... i also keep quiet dun wan to say... =P

Reach home... sis not at home... den go online.. chat chat n try to make tat stupid maple story work... till now still cannot... sux... den start to do the aeromodelling stuff los... half do, half chat, half dload thingy... sian..

Now i dunno wad my heart thinking.... felt tat i'll look at him in a diff way... see him wan to talk to him but also duno wad to say.... felt he also look at me differently leh... hahahs... dunno la... trying not to think so much..

Gd nite ppl.....

[I wonder.... Have I??]

honeymoon tragedy

2004-12-13T22:51:00.000+08:00

Is life really tat short?? It is really so unpredicable... if u ppl got catch the news... the honeymoon tragedy.... u can feel the saddness of it rite...

Well.... the couple r frm my church... my tribe.... still can remember the first time poh yoke prayed for me during my 2nd time enc... still can remember the couple sitting in the same table as me during ahpa n ahma chan's wedding dinner..... still can remember the last time i saw poh yoke... 1 dec.. tribe meeting... n ms keh was still making a joke out of her saying tat she's going to cook... laughing away..

but now... haiz.. although i'm nt really close to her... i can still feel so sad.. still hv tat little memories of her flashing in my mind... wad more will the rest be facing... wat more will angela (her cell leader), ahpa, ahma, ms keh, elsie.. n the other sisters n brothers who r close to them be facing.. wat more will pastor seng lee be facing... hving to just married them 1 mth ago.. n now.. hv to prepare for their funeral...

Why does God wan to take them away.. no one noes. Is their life on Earth really fulfilled? Is their purpose here really done? I believed so... but still do not understand... if their life really fulfilled n done on just tat short 30 yrs? Guess it's really a great challenge frm God to all of us.. to overcome this... n for the first time... i noe how it felt to hv someone leaving Earth tat i noe of.. Well at least i noe.. tat they are wif the Lord now.. in paradise.... dancing n singing wif the angels above... at least i noe... tat they are up there.....

Life's really short... wad if one day..... the same thing were to happen to me? wad if one day.. the same thing were to happen to the many i love? The most i can do now... is to spread God's word..fast.. n try my best to make sure tat they hv received tat gift of eternal life.... at least i noe... if tat day really come... they will be up there... waiting 4 me to join them in paradise after my job on Earth is done......

[They were man n woman of great faith..]

roy received chirst

2004-12-12T03:07:00.000+08:00

yes... just one more... den my Goal for dis yr dis complete.... cos me just brought Roy to FCBC... den he received Christ... 11 dec 2004... Angels rejoices n dance in heaven again.... previous nite was dragging him to go.. cos i sensed tat God really wan him to be there... n truely... the topic was on the gift of wisdom.. n God spoke to Roy... Praise the Lord...

however... ah pa n ah ma having bad time.. some church mate.. went NZland for honeymoon.. met a fatal accident... think didnt make it alive... haiz...sad... ah pa still trying to accept the fact of it.. haiz...

today... onli me.. n roy... wif ah pa n ah ma went to church.. ziyu work.. chinn yee... dunno... leehoon work... wonder where chinnyee... me nv sms her.. she also nv sms me.. weird

finally... maple story play until lvl 15 liao... char also look nicer liao.. nicer outfit.. hehes.
haiz.. miss my darling michelle... miss my dear beverly... miss my daddi latiff.. but nvm.. daddi back later liao... mich back on mon.. hehes.

later early morning need to SOL1.. sian ar... travelling alone there... cos dun think ziyu going... working.. (still dun understand y work is more impt den learning more abt God)... after tat meet Christine... at J8.. go see 5566... sian... waste money to buy the calendar.. lolx. it better be nice a worth of my 20 bucks... wonder how would it feel to be in da front... near near the stage... hahas.. some more no need to go there very very early early... gd gd... =)

tml also... my youngest cousin full mth... cant be there los... ok la... me wan to zzzz liao.. just now clean my table until very tired... but now.. see my table.. shiok ar... so clean... n tidy.. hahas!

ok la... Gd nite ppl... miss u all... muackZ!~

bev fly le..

2004-12-11T04:41:00.000+08:00

haiz... my dear bev fly off liao...... the plane will be flying in 15 mins time......... miss her.... miss mich.... who is in bangkok liao..... miss daddi..... who is in Bali now..... haiz.....

Slpt for 17hrs..... frm 10pm to 3pm...... after tat..... Roy asked me to pei him...... he in bad mood... parents divorcing... go pei him lor.. we went ps... makan... talk talk... watch incredibles.. very very nice show... all abt family..... but the sit not gd... 2nd row sia... corner corner... show so long le still full hse.. sian. JACK JACK SO CUTE!~ lolx. Den me just in time to go preciousthots.. bought tat happyhouse planner.. n a memoclip.. waste money again.. lolx. but haiz.. forgot to bring my $10 ps voucher!!~~

After tat went home los... the show was longer den i expected... ended at 10pm... reach home 11pm... den watch tv... tidy my table area (finally)... tml den tidy the table. Online... chat chat wif bev... den chat wif Roy... den persuade him go church wif me later.. hahas. Den play maple story... after playing for just 2 nitez...... hahas!~ me level 12 liao... now a warrior..

Think me wan go slp liao... yaWns... later 9am still meeting Justina play bball...den Roy say wan go lan.. after tat me wan drag him go church.. lolx.

[Is love suppose to be a good or bad thing... if it's good... why does my heart feel so heavy each time i think of you..]

back frm camp feast

2004-12-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

Back frm camp feast... it was a DISASTER!!!!! now i noe.... y air n the other elements r so different... the way we work are totally diff.... den tat damn sergeant JY.. attached to sea de... kaox... during debrief scold my air MasterSergeant... he log oic... den alot of cock up... den say wad "BECAUSE YOU ARE FRM AIR!!" wa lau.... FUCK OFF la! bloody hell... think u sea u big izzit?! nv see air run camp b4!! tat nite really damn angry.... after tat i heck care lor! dis is a SEA BASED camp feast wad... i frm AIR bother so much for wad... not happy wif the air... so i also heck lor... dis will be the first n last time i'm going to work for the sea!

Just now went for dinner wif daddi n feline... daddi just returned frm KL... we went ragtime.... den abt to go tat time... guess wad... we saw ms danz n mr ang! so qiao hor... hahas. den talk talk awhile... den feline hv to rush home... so went off lor... tml meet ms danz n mr ang go clt pop.

Actually just now... daddi send me home... wanted to ask him whether can hug him or not de... but i think he also very tired... so i also nv ask lor... long long time nv see him liao... long long long long time nv hug him le....

Sad ar... tml... he cant make it for the clt pop... flying off to Bali frm raps... SAD AR... coming back onli on sunday... =(.... gonna miss him....

Tml morning... me n mich is gonna wash his car... hahas! in da morning... hopefully can wake up..

[cant get you out of my mind]

monday morn

2004-12-06T11:08:00.000+08:00

let's start frm last sat..
hv to go church early.. den tat ziyu n chinn yee.. kaoz.. cannot wait for me awhile one ar... kaoz. like will die lke tat... den last min say du wan meet, den say meet, den say dun meet.. wat is this.. damn angry... wat do they treat me as?!?!... den go church... go ushering duty.. kind of fun... cried during worship.. to the song "there is none like you"... felt kind of.. gd... den wif God presence... God cheered me up... mummy was off to encounter... so went home by bus... went to amk central... play DDR wif Chinn yee... the song she choose... kaoz... so fast... den my leg so tired... but still can pass... hahas! was really fun... soon i will learn to dance tat song... dunno wad... the trick... hehehes.

sunday... early morning wake up for SOL1... after tat saw Daniel... didnt really talk la... just smile smile... den ahma n ms keh go mummum... me n ziyu follow.. den me stomachache.. den headache.. all the way until nite... ziyu went my hse... dun let me slp.. lolx. but i still slpt la.. she also slp (tat's y i can slp... lolx).. slp for 2 hrs... wake up eat pizza... watch tv... still feel sick... den ziyu went home... i go back slp..

today.... wake up quite early... cos slpt early... den settle the camp feast thingy lor... later tonite booking in for camp feast.. me overall 2ic... zeng zhao korkor will be there... so dunno anything can ask him.. hahas.. n bully him also la... lolx! yea... not really in da mood to write..

Daddi in KL now... coming back on wed... mich flying off to thailand on wed... back onli ard 16-18.. bev flying off to france den to spain on 10 (friday)... back onli on 22.... daddi flyin off to bali on 19... back on 22... sian man... my daddi n dar n dear... take turn to fly off... hahas. at least... wouldnt hv a day all 3 r gone....

[Can't believe a world without you]

o.0

2004-12-03T21:39:00.000+08:00

Today early morning wake up liao... went down to amq lor.. Unity got tat aero cos den gary ask me go down... go there... learn some stuff... help out... fly plane.. tempt eug... =P

After tat me meet jiawei n haiting... go town... try to look for a wallet for... better not say for who first.. =P. yea... den look look see see lor... saw one nt bad de... i like tat brand.. hahas! haiting went off to meet her mum first...den me n jiawei meet bev for dinner... went far east eat chicken rice.. den shop shop abit... went heerens.. take neo. kaoz... so nt nice.. all no mood to do all kind of funni thing. hahas! den we went home los... tat time abt 7pm liao. Took da train... kaoz... so fast reach amk liao... den aiyo..... bev gave me a shock... cos i was like looking at her wif some kind of... kaoz n ke lian face... complain so fast reach amk.... den she say... "ya los"... den kiss me.. kaoz. So sudden.. hahas! Den demand kiss in return... lolx! den kiss her back los... hehes!

yea... now hv to work on alot of things ar.... coming camp feast i 2IC.. help OIC do thing... den aeromodelling OIC... hv to do alot of thing also.. come out wif the committee fast.... den company some more... 3clans.... just now Roy call me say change of plan... wan to start the thing now... den... ok lor.. bo bian lor... work lor... now i sweating like hell... wan to faster settle some stuff den go bathe le... hehe!

[love u 4eva my dears n dar n daddi]

Back frm Bali

2004-12-02T03:44:00.000+08:00

i'm back!! yes.. back. =) miss u ppl real lots... over there.. lots of fun but.. no u ppl.. heart was heavy.. cant wait to be back.. cos cant wait to catch up on u ppl.. wad u doing dis few days.. how u feeling.. gd or bad... i'm nt here for u 4 tat few days.. but nvm.. i'm back now! =)

Here's wad i've been doing in Bali.. =)

Day 1, 25.11.04 Thurs
Frm the previous post.. u will noe.. tat i fly off this day.. ya... on da plane.. i played abit of Mario (always die de.. sian).. den watch i-robot. nice show man! very meaningful.. very exciting.. the plane food was.. ok los.. nt very nice... chicken wif potato. after 2 hrs of flight.. reach Bali.. the airport was really.. cannot compare wif s'pore. when we landed.. it was already kind of dark.. den we head off to our villa.. (Bali Desa Suite).. it's just beside club med. the place is kind of... quiet.. we seem to be the onli family staying there. hahas! but of cos not.. onli seem to be. den me n mummy walk walk ard... try to find the gate to the beach. den end up walk one big round.. frm lobby... back to lobby. hahas! den forget it.. we go back the villa.. unpack our stuff.... watch tv.. talk talk... play cluedo n payday n uno n taidi.. lolx. den me pray a very long prayer. after tat me n jie take silly photo in our rm.... den i started a pillow fight.. hahas! den had a gd nite slp (nt tat gd also la.. lolx)

Day 2, 26.11.04 Fri
Woke up quite late today.. almost 11am. had da breakfast in the villa... (the ham was EEeee.. totally tasteless).. den went swimming... had lots of fun.. lolx.. trying to pull my sis frm da steps into da deep pool.. =P. den after tat... bathe... den we go shopping!! asked the villa ppl to send us to some shopping area... den we walk down the lane.. (kind of a polluted place.. some long kang water r still.. n dirty.. look yucky.. n stinks!)... me bought some souveniers for u ppl.. den my mummy bought a pants for herself.. plus 2 slingbag n shirts for my sis. had a hard time bargaining.. cos we all dun like to bargain.. hahas.. but bo bian... hv to bargain if nt lu gi.... ya.... after tat... walk back up... den mummy see the exchange rate gd... den go change money (she need on looking at every shop's exchange rate.. lolx).. den we went to da departmental store to shop.. mainly was onli at the first floor.. supermarket. hahas! bought some titbits.. drinks... all to enjoy ourselves tat nite in front of the tv.. wif da ice wine frm s'pore... hehes. shiok man. den mummy drink so much.. almost finished one whole bottle... den went sieh..... den go her bed slp.. complain headache.. hahas! den when getting late, me go bed los.. read bible... read alot... half of matthew wor.. lolx. den tired... pray.. slp.

Day3, 27.11.04 Sat
We went for a cruise! early morning hv to wake up eat breakfast n catch the car to da jetty. the road was very congested.. traffic very slow.. the car ride was so uncomfortable.. cant slp.. butt numb.. for 45mins! terrible. but nv the lest.. still excited. reached da harbour, den we set of to da cruise.. towards Lembogang island (i think is spelt like tat). We took the fun cruise.. which will take us 1hr 30 mins... den not long after the boat leave the jetty... den i slp liao... the Sun was so bright. When i wake up.. we were there le.. but the boat didnt really bring us to shore.. it stopped some where in the middle of the sea near the shore... we changed into our swimming costume.. den went snokelling!! it was fun.. the water was really clear! very nice... den saw all kind of fishes.. n corals!! cant believe i saw real corals in the sea! (thou it was 10m-15m below me).. after swimming a while.. all of us keep on feeling something sharp poking into our skins. tot it was nth.... den i saw something rite in front of me.. JELLYFISH!! it was not really in the round shape.. look like a enlarged amoeba to me. When we return back to the boat.. the crew say it was jellyfish attack.. happens once in a while.. comes wif the wind n tide. den he took vinegar to apply on da stings... it stinks n feels yucky.. but very effective in curing the sting n itch. After tat.. we had lunch on board.. not tat nice.. after lunch.. had kayaking.. n banana boat riding... it was real fun.. the banana boat riding was real trilling.. very fast.. den jie had to return the kaya to a small station a distance away frm the boat.. for me. den gt cut by leaves in the water when swimming back. After tat we took a motorboat to shore.. n to our hotel on da island. a very diff place... den went to swim in the pool.. gt sunburned.... den had dinner.. go back to da rm.. me very sian.. den lie down there on the bed... worshipping God wif the somg frm my mp3 player. hahas! den after a very short pray.. slp.

Day4, 28.11.04 Sun
Woke up very early.. 4am. wanted to catch the sunrise (the sun sets at 6pm n rise b4 5am). so bo bian... den wake up.. instead of the sun.. saw a very beautiful bright moon... took a pic of it.. den look at the sky... still abit early... den go slp... wake up 15 mins later... aiya.. sun rise liao.. but also kanna blocked.. so cant see also. den accompanied jie take photo... den mummy joined us.. den we go walk walk.. walked to the beach tat's a distance away.. saw alot of ppl farming seaweeds.. a sight tat u will nv see in s'pore. after walking for a long time.. day's very bright already... den we see the time.. kao! onli 6.30am.. cant even hv breakfast... den go back slp.. until 10am den went back down to hv breakfast... den go up rm play taidi.. n uno.... den pack our stuff... change to swimsuits... check out... den swim in da pool while we wait for time to pass to take the cruise back. had suntanning again... den playing ard wif a surfboard found in da pool. When we on the cruise back to Bali... we saw dolphins! alot of them.. jumping up n down in n out of the water... a very nice sight.. thou it was kind of far.. but still.. nice. den me slp again. lolx. when reaching Bali.. the cruise engine spoilt... the other boat hv to pull it back to harbour.. den we head back to the villa.... rest.. pack our stuff... pray.. slp...

Day5, 29.11.04 Mon
We checked out of the villa today.. n went over to kuta. it was a really diff place.. we stayed at Green Garden Hotel. when we reached the hotel... we left our stuff in the room... hooked on to the tv (got disney channel n cartoon network).. den went shopping. tat area was really more crowded.. more tourists.. n more shopping areas.. so we walked n walked.. to the beach... den saw the waterbom park (it was ex... so nv go in) den went to hard rock cafe da shop to see see look look.... den went to A&Ws... hahas! den dunno is suei or wad... the power went off... n we happen to be the onli customers in da place.. waited for 10 mins like tat.. in darkness n no aircon.. den the power came back. after tat... continued shopping... at a shopping centre... den bought souveniers again.. hahas.... ya... den went to supermarket.. bought titbits n drinks again.. den go back hotel enjoy. At nite... eat titbit watch tv... slp...

Day6, 30.11.04 Tues
Woke up ard 9am like tat... had breakfast... den we changed n head off to the beach. The sand was like of black.. naturally. n had to go pass a area where there r alot of stones... b4 we can reach a area in da sea whereby the sand below is soft... den played ard wif the waves... den started to rain... so went back to shore.. n hard back to the hotel... den rain stop.. so went to da pool to swim... hahas. swim 4 quite some time... den rain.. den get out... den bathe.. den slack in da rm. after tat... rain stopped... den me n mummy went shopping... i bought a very nice pants for myself... bargain until onli 6 bucks.. hahas. den mummy gt one also. n we also bought pants for min n hwee... n titbits n drinks again. hahas! den we head back... had dinner.... den slack in rm... drink coke eat pringles.. watch cartoon network. hahas! den nan de... me last one to slp wor... prayed for a gd nite rest... dreamless one (had not been slping well)... n zzzzzzzzz all the way to morning... thk God.

Day7, 01.12.04 Wed
Woke up ard 9.30am.. pack our stuff... prepare for home sweet home. went down for breakfast.. den took our stuff n head off to the airport... on board SQ143... i played mario3 for a while... den watched princess diaries 2.. really very funny.... me n min was watching...den laughing away... hahas!! really couldnt control..... lolx! plane food back also not very nice... fish n potato... den reach back s'pore... ah.... the feeling was great.. on-ed my fone.. dunno y.. the msg before dis day.. all nv receive de... =(.... so those who msged me.. or replyed to my bye msg on 25/11... i nv receive it (fone no autorom la)... ya... den start to sms ppl annouce my arrival back... cos i really miss u ppl... really really miss u... =(....... den reach some ard 5pm... unpack some stuff... washed up abit.. change... den left hse again at 5.35pm like tat.... for tribe meeting at church there. the meeting lasted until 10pm.... but was gd... i felt God... just wad i wanted.. den i fell los (not really fell la.. pastor jo pushed me down.. lolx)... but lying there in the presence of God.. was really gd.. felt like i was on cloud. den after tat... had dinner wif ms keh they all... den someone sent me home... nt gd at remembering names la... so... sry. opps.
so now i'm HOME!!! tml still hv to register for GEMS... oh ya!!! den jialat... dunno whether can meet my dear for lunch or not liao.... cos it's 12pm to 2pm... den me most prob going play lan tml... everything back to normal.... den saw my timetable for next semester also... sad la.... no more 4 day week.... den somemore... 4 out of 5 days... sch starts at 8... ahhhhhh... sian. but lucky... friday end at 11am...den can go for ncc if change to 5 day wk. den wed also end early.. 12nn i think... den can go for cell. =).... need to thank God also... everything just so well planned...
Lord i pray... tat u will just help me o Lord... to choose the perfect GEM...the module tat u wan me to take o Lord... the module tat u planned..... Lord i just pray for protection over all of us... n also those tat do not really believe in u Lord.. i pray tat u will protect them as well... thank u Lord... thank you for ur great love..... in Jesus most precious name i pray... Amen!~

(took 2 hrs to write all this)

[I really cannot get you out of my heart]

before departure...

2004-11-25T16:04:00.000+08:00

Hihi!~ me now at Changi airport... transit there... leaving off to Bali very soon... even rite now.. still in s'pore... i already miss me daddi n bev they all le... n michy also...

Just now went to expo SITEX 2004 to settle some stuff... kind of.. boring there la.. but went there to see ziyu lor.. (daddi.. u free give roy a call den go down lor.. hees)

ok la..me wan go play xbox liao... =P

Everyone take care hor... 1 wk.. away frm u all... cant sms u all also.. sad la.. but nvm.. n dun worry... i will still enjoy myself de.. the beaches.. waves.. sunset... =)

I'll be back on the 1 dec.. afternoon like tat... yea... take care... bye!!~~

[you are deep in my heart..]

updating bloggy...

2004-11-23T01:07:00.000+08:00

long time nv update.. oppss.... cos nv online... den when wan to update.... bloody hell modem spoilt.... need to pay 50bucks to my sis for tat.... ArGh...

sat service.... make me feel so bad.. den realised... i'm so...... alone... so...... away frm the rest. haiz... ask me wad i wan to confess (i kept quiet)... den they themselves.. when confessing to pastor.. u noe wad they do? THEY PULL ME AWAY TO MAKE SURE I DUN HEAR WAD THEY CONFESS!!!! WHAT IS THIS?? den after tat still say....... *hand over my shoulder* "come on la... we are sisters rite... no secrets rite? so... come on.. tell me wad u wan to confess.." basket... wan me to tell u when u are the one who pull me away... sisters? PuI!! did u all ever considered how i felt? i'm really tired... trying to love each n every one of u... is not easy... but.. the more i try to draw near to u ppl.... the more i'm hurt... it just seems tat no matter wad i do.. no matter how had i try... I seem to be the one hurting u ppl. I seem to be the one making u ppl leave the cell.. everything just seemed to be MY fault.. the rope tat i'm holding on to is just cutting into my flesh each passing day... cutting deeper n deeper... but no one seems to realise tat.. no one seems to care. i noe God is there.. i noe ahpa will always be there. it's not my seeking love frm u ppl... i'm just trying to love u ppl.. but the harder i try.. i more i get hurt... i'm onli asking to stop hurting me... i'm really tired.. cant hold on any longer... if dis still continues... very soon... i'm going to let go of the rope........
tat nite was really terrible... it's been a real long time.. since the last time my tears fell wif a pain in my heart... i felt... i was moving back to who i was... where my world was just me myself n i.. n no one was able to find tat key into the rm of my soul...

sunday... me went to dis NVAU hari raya celebration @ mama raps hse.. met michy (aiyo.. miss her so much..long time nv see her).. n pris they all... den we make our way there.. kind of bored there la... makan... play uno, play ice n water (hahaz... childish rite...). den mummi raps daughter... nadia (think is spell like tat la)... keep on finding challenger for UNO.. hahas.. Ian lost to her 20 rounds man... lolx! den she very violent sia.
Me one of the early ones who reached there.. den the last one to leave.. bored la... nth to do... den mummi n daddi gave me 'ang' bao.... den daddi very cute... when sending me home.. say give wrong 'ang' bao to me.. tat one for the others... den took it back n gave me another one.. kaoZ.. reach home so shocked.. the amt increasement was... 10 TIMES!!! really got stanned...
tat nite... sms ahpa the things tat's in my mind... 4 sms long... but still cant finish explaining wad i was feeling... tears flowed down again...

monday.. kaoz early morning went PHS learn n teach PDS.. den met roy for lunch plus company meeting. morning ahpa also sms me.... say wan meet me.. ask me can meet for lunch or breakfast or not.. but too bad.. cant lor. ya back to where i was... den after meeting? me go home los... on the way conference wif ziyu n mich.. until when i reach home.. hp no batt. hahas. den me playing sims2 until my sis come home fix the modem... den i go slp... tired la.. slp for a while onli... den kaoz.. the hp so noisy... but lucky me nv leave it in my rm to charge (slping in my mummy rm)... IT"S DADDI!! hahahs! miss him so much! yea... ask me where i am.. den ask me wan go eat nasi lemak or not... i say ok liao.. den went back slp =P. den later the hp so noisy again... den i see "i reach liao... me at carpark bh blk 522". i was like... shiit.... me still slping. hahas! den faster get up change den go down... face still gt tat slpy slpy look. den the nice nice nasi lemak store nv open... sux. the one tat we eat..... eeee... so er.. chicken no taste... chili not nice... rice so soggy.. yukZ! hahas. but me still finished the whole plate la... =P.

so here i am... now gt work to do... make flyer... make coupon.. sian man.... should hv asked for proj based $$...

coming Thursday.. me flying off to Bali (shiok... can take SQ plane for 2hrs!!), Sitex 2004 starts, eugene book in for CLT cos, daddi on cos, mich go swimming. hahas!

gd nite ppl... i wonder... will tears flow down again tonite??........

[no one will be able to understand]

sad plus busy..

2004-11-17T01:02:00.000+08:00

Early morning... SUX... fone call fone call sms sms... kaoZ!~ disturb my beauty slp.
Haiz... my dear bev retained........
Can hear frm her voice when she called... she cried... me so xin tong... the moment i hear tat voice.... just feel like rushing over to wherever she is n give her a hug... sobx.....
Den the Haagendaz ppl bluff her somemore... now say dun wan to qing ren liao.. PianG~ make her day worse.
Sry wor dear.. dis few days cant pei ni.. cos me very busy wif the aeromodelling centre in hq ncc.. so sry....
Well... i guess there will be a blessing in disguise ba.. to think tat God let dis happen... yupz... there will be... maybe becos of dis she is able to score better in her A's n able to fly off to Aust to study... =)
Whole day rain.. rain.. rain.. so sian.. den in the aero centre sweating like hell.. whole place so dirty.. so much dust... den tat mag singham.. so late den come.. we (me n bro zhao) 4pm den start work. suX! if he were to come earlier den we can finish lot more things liao... tml will be back there again to finish the job.. hopefully the others will work.. cos zengzhao kor kor will nt be there... gt tests whole day (gd luck wor).. hope can hv alot of things done...

*huGgiEz to my dear Bev... n my darling MiCh.... my dear ShaRonz... n of cos.. my daddi LatiFf.. *

job done

2004-11-16T03:51:00.000+08:00

eyes so tired.. yawNz..
Finally.. i'm done wif the company logo n namecards. FINALLY!~ Roy so fussy sia.. hahas! but nvm.. now very nice liao. kekez.
but den... HE HVNT REGISTER THE COMPANY!! If the name dun pass.. i'm will surely 100% KILL HIM!!
muahahahahhas..... tired ar.. brain dead.
Better go slp soon.. later still need to go job interview wif my beverly dear.. hehes.
Lord i pray tat bev will hv the word "promoted" on the result slip.. same for sharon too. Lord i pray tat u will just be wif them.. n be wif us O Lord.. n i pray tat u will help me n bev in getting tat job in haagendaz. In the mighty name of Jesus i pray.. Amen. =)

new cousin

2004-11-15T02:46:00.000+08:00

just now me went to hospital..Thomson medical center.. see my new born cousin.. hahas! so cute!~ so small.. den my mummy say she so notti.. just born onli den keep on wan to bite hand. hahas.

but me still like my cousin phoebe.. lolx. me bully her... hahas... den ask her to kiss me. =P (bev going to say me flirt liao..again.. hahas) lolx! den she poor thing wor... when going home den fall down.. head hit chair.. den cry lo.. so er lian.. sobz. she so hyper sia.. so ke ai.. shou bu liao ar!~.. hahas!

new look!!

2004-11-15T02:23:00.000+08:00

yea!! finally done wif the new skin liao. me combined 2 skins together.. one FF9, one FFX de.. photoshop editing of pics etc... wa.. so tiring... dunno sit here for how many hrs liao.. think abt 4hrs ba.. . started to work on it since 11pm? yea... den how still hv to think think think... think of the company name, think of company logo, think of how to make.

hahahas!~ yea... sian ar... still gt alot of fine tuning to the blog.. me very fussy hor.. hahas! cos wan to make dis blog unique.. n easy to read. yea.. heeZz

missing u ppl out there... mich.. bev.. daddi.. really miss u all.. u miss me ma? =)

early birdy

2004-11-12T10:36:00.000+08:00

today kind of a unusual day.. cos i woke up so early!~ hahas. nan de i nv slp until afternoon since also not nth to do. yea.. actually thks to CPT Gary's fone call.. early morning call to book me for the whole of next week. Now u ppl noe y i too busy to work liao rite. hahas.

he just handed over a big challenge to me... tat is to manage the whole aero centre. stress sia.. hahas. den still hv to help Roy design his company logo. dunno can do up to wad he wan or not.. hope so la.. Lord just gib me the strength n wisdom to do all tat i need to do okie? =)

yest cell.. during worship my leg very suan.. cos i keep on wanting to fall forward.. but there is just something holding me back.. by the end of worship.. both my legs really very luan.. also dunno why just hv tat hard time letting myself fall.. haiz.

after cell... ahpa ahma just leave the few of us in their hse sia.. unbelievable. lolx. den teh few of us.. turned their hse upside down. =P. den we left the place at ard 6pm.. took a cab (cos leehoon need to rush hm) down to khatib... den me ziyu n chinnyee went over to beverly hse. hehes!~
miss my dear dear so much. den she wear until so hiphop go town.. 1st sight of her last nite abit shocked me. hahas. ya den watch s'pore idol n renwohaoyou at her hse lo.. 10.45pm den left her place.. her rm so nice to nua man... hehez. (dunno why last nite feel like kissing her.. lolx!~ shh...)

reached hm.. bathe.. pack up my stuff in the living rm abit... den read bible on my bed (shifted my table lamp to my bed).. guai hor.. =P. dunno why i read until very shuang.. read 10over chap of matt. den highlighted some stuff on my new backpack bible. den i realised.. highlighting in the bible is really useful.. hahas. den i read read read.. until fall aslp lo.. as usual. den put away everything.. n ZzZZzzzz.......

i go find thing to eat liao... gRoWl... see... my stomach complaining liao... hvnt eat breakfast.. last nite dinner also didnt eat alot (but had xian yu chao fan... n mOmO pEaRl ReD.. yUmmmMm)

spec cos

2004-11-07T19:11:00.000+08:00

hiya... few days nv online le.. was off 4 duty at the Air Specialists' Course Phrase II as a flight commander. it was my first camp as a CLT in hq (apart frm the Ophir expedition)

overall.. really enjoyed myself. Learned alot... n had alot of satisfaction seeing my flight (Falcon 3) learning n growing as the days pass.. till today they pass out as a specialist. Really like my flight.. some r real gd... had a hard time choosing my flight best cadet. some r just very funny, fun to be wif. thou i felt tat i could hv done better.. in the sense of teaching them the TF n IFC stuff.. felt tat i had done my part in disciplining them, n letting them learn in a tough yet enjoyable way. Falcon 3 is the BEST!~

Myself.. i learnt alot too. learnt wad to do as a Flight commander now... learnt how to lead cadets better.. manage them better, n really learnt how to speak up, learnt how to talk (as well as scold la.. lolx).

almost every morning since thurs, i had milo n biscuits (one of the morning overslpt.. basket). Wed nite, after a whole afternoon at the aeromodelling centre building plane, i had my tom yam instant noodles, plus chicken rice n fries.
2nd nite.. booked out meet siming sixing yaling n caiwen at ljs for dinner. actually was becos of ann.. but.. aiya.. tat usual her.. suppose to meet her at 8.. den 8 called her.. she still at holland v. den i rush back to camp watch tv lor.. S'pore idol n Champion. hahas
3rd nite.. chicken favour instant noodles. hahas!~ den watch Spore idol results (yes!! LEANDRA IS OUT!!!) n Champion. hahas. ya.. just relaxing... den had abit of supper.. coffee n biscuit. lolx
4th nite. the best. hahas! in da evening i also flew the Cl plane.. finally man. after 2yrs of no flying.. i can take off the plane n fly not bad leh.. so happy. hahas! den at nite.. alot of them booked out to go hm get their no3.. den i need to meet daddi so he can pass me my no3 shoes. den me 9.20pm like tat den leave the camp.. meet daddi.. he sent me home put stuff first.. den wif zzlam, we went changi airport eat swensens omelette. ShiOk man!~ hahas!~ ya.. den return back to camp just nice... 1153... few mins b4 we get locked outside the gate. but need to do alot of admin stuff back there.. preparing 4 tml's POP.. 1plus to 2am like tat den slp.

so now.. very tired. oh ya.. me at camp also very bad.. hahas!~ every nite tat runni keep on making us laugh laugh laugh. den though out the camp.. keep on saying the word 'f..k'. opps. hahas!~ cos all the clts there also like tat. lolx!~ bo bian. =P

ok la... long enuff le. byE!~~ (really happy to see my bev dear's recent entry on 6th nov.. shows tat God had touched her..... Lord i pray tat u will just continue to let her feel u.. feel ur truth n exsistence)

Baptism!~

2004-10-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

hihi!~ today.. is a BIG day for me.. as i was baptised in the name of the God, of the Son n of the Holy Spirit. =)

received a couple of presents. gt thumbdrive (daddy made me so diaoz when he told me tat daniel paid the most for it.. looking at me wif tat kind of look.. hahas), den gt a book "the bondage breaker" frm emerline n eileen (my mummy's cell mate n cell leader). den also gt a braclet frm my xiao mei. ahpa n ahma last min bought me a study bible.. exactly the same as mine tat i bought it myself. diaoz. i tot daddy also gt see my study bible b4 den i first brought it to his hse. den they nv gib me lo.. wanna get something else 4 me. hahas. yea plus a couple of cards too.. frm the cell, n also frm jeremiah. hahas.. ahpa was so shocked when he pass me teh card... tot he gib to all the ppl baptising... cos he dunno tat me n mich gt talk to him on msn. hahas. Thanks everyone!~

den bev, sharon, n chia visited fcbc lo... to witness my baptism. so happy sia.. hehes. thks 4 coming!~ really hope one day.. sharon will join us in fcbc n cell, n grow together. (well.. cos she say she looking for some other church too... cos she nt close to the ppl in her church. so really hope she will join us one day.. n experience the love of dis family.) really hope tat bev will come to trust the Lord soon too... n tat she will also join us. heeZ. Bev n Sharon, our door will always be wide open for u eh. =).

oh ya.. me also gt a vanilla icecream frm ahpa.. idea of mich n him. hahas. (lucky nt chocolate)

ok la... yAwnz. tired le. God bless all of u.. n i pray tat the Lord will protect everyone of us.. in the name of Jesus.. Amen.!~

Exams Ended

2004-10-28T18:09:00.000+08:00

YEAH!~ exams ended liao. hahahs. can enjoy life le. hahas. can hv long slp liao. been lack of slp the last few days. seriously need to pay back my slp debt.

very tired... slpy.. dun say so much liao. hahas!~ really feel great.
Baptism date drawing near... sad that Daniel cant make it...gt wad prefect camp that he hv to go give lecture. hahas. but nvm.. got my bev n sharon dear. HeeZ~

Forecast: next week fully booked by ncc liao.
Monday: Beach cleaning or Aeromodelling
Tues: Aeromodelling?
Wed: Aeromodelling (confirmed)
Thurs to Sun: Spec cos phrase II

mugging~

2004-10-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

feeling so stress now.... tml exam.. haiz.

just now was watching "the champion"... Toro (acting jiajun) was so CUTE!~ den see tat fiona xie (acting kaixin) hugging him.. aiyo... feel like hugging him also. hahas!~ sry ar... daydreaming.

ok la... mugging time.. no need to slp tonite liao i guess... hv to pia my electronics le. bYE!~ (stress... ppl... do keep me in prayer as i keep u ppl in prayer =D)

Recalling saturday

2004-10-25T23:20:00.000+08:00

yea... sry for not updating again. hahas!~ lazy la. write blog need inspirations de leh.. den nowadays dunno y dun hv...

yea.. recalling saturday.. it was really FUN FUN FUN!~ yea.. celebrated my beverly's dear bdae!~ (kind of belated de la) den we went kbox!~ after my ncc in da morning plus sakae wif my ahpa n ahma... me was the latest to be at somerset wor... den no present somemore.. cos dis mth totally broke... n didnt really gt the time 4 shopping.. yea... sry hor dear... when i see something real nice tat made me think of u.. den me buy 4 u.. hahas!~. yea.... den me kind of chuan de zhui shui bian... just tee n jeans.. den the rest.. very nice. hahas. sry abt tat too.. cos didnt gt the time to go home change.

ya.. so we went kbox at cineleisure. it was real fun... n we gt real high towards the end... really shouting into the mic... think abt 2 rooms away can hear us liao. hahas! like hving mini disco in da mini room like tat. we pushed all da tables to da side den was jumping around in da middle... den dunno who broke a glass. hahas!~ but heck!~ as long as we enjoyed urselves can le. the last song "tuo diao" was really shiok... nanananana... hahas!~ nv got so high b4...

den my sharon dear... really my ou xiang!~ hahas!~ yea... cos she dance so well!~ really see liao den shou bu liao. how i wish to be able to dance like her. but.. hahas!~ think me dun hv the genes la. =P

yea den we went to newton food centre to eat... on da way there in da train frm somerset, my bevv dear shocked me. hahas!~ cos she suddenly tell me "deb ar... feel like kissing u.."... den i reply "kiss lor".. den she continue.. "ur lips.."... hahas!~ den i shocked for few sec... den reply her "kiss lor"... hahas! but nv la.. cos she say.."hmm dun wan la... here alot of ppl... hahas!~"... hahas!~ yea.. she really so adorable.. so lovely.. so lovable.. hahas!~

realy had lots of fun on sat... =D.... miss u ppl alot!~ love ya bev dear n sharon dear!~ see u on coming sat 4 my baptism!~

ProJecTs EndEd

2004-10-21T19:42:00.000+08:00

YEAH!~ today very happy!~ cos finish my OC liao!~ i got 75.5/100 for the individual presentation. haha!~ but hard for me to get a B also.. cos of my grp presentation n my written test (62/10). but nvm la! over liao.. MuHAhaHahaHA!!~~

den we were playing around wif my cam.. took quite a lot of pics.. mostly craps. hahas! yea.. cos of my crappy class.. wad to do.

tml is FRIDAY!~ actually need to go down to hq for aeromodelling in the morning.. but cancel. saD Ar!~ den afternoon got autoCAD test.. dis one stress.. cos assembling dun really noe how to do.. hope will be quite easy just like test 1. den ah pa msg me just now.. say tml cell at 4pm... i was like.. WTH!~ test frm 2pm to 4.30 lor... saD AR!~

But nvm... after tml... NO MORE AUTOCAD!!!! den my mechanic also end le.. den will onli left the thermofluids n electronics exam... stREsss..........

tMl is FRIDAY!~ den i will be meeting daddi for dinner liao... hehehehhehe!!~~ HaPpY!~ sHa La La LA! iT'S sO gD tO bE HaPpY!~ ShaLaLa!

Den will come SATURDAY!!!!!!!! KBOX MARCHEE HERE I COME!~ miss bev sharon n chia...

auToCaD LesSoN~

2004-10-18T15:11:00.000+08:00

BORING!!!!!!
I WAN TO GO HOME!!!!

now at autoCaD lesson... but also not doing anything.... no mood to do... totally totally no mood No MoOd NO MOOD!!!!

sian ar............. headache ar! eyes so tired... tml gt mechanics test somemore... major test ar! jialat.. den i yesterday den noe tml gt tat test.... jialat liao la... all 5 chapters leh..

sian!

today is my Beverly Dear's bdae... but she very ke lian... today start her promos. it must be her most stressful bdae ba.. but nvm.. Dear! me sing a song for u.. 'Happy Birthday to U, Happy bIrtHdaY to U, HapPy BirThdAy to My BevErly Dear! HapPy BirThdAy tO yoU!' hehes... LoVe ya! n MisS ya! SeE yA DiS saT! (mE nT gOinG chuRcH... sPenDiNg tHe wHoLe DaY wiF U =D)

Next week come visit FCBC k? den see me being baptisted also. =) Ask Sharon n ur dear along also if u wan. hehes

Sian man........ all like kanna trapped in class like tat... all wan go home cannot go home.. also no mood to do the work liao.... Dis friday autoCAD test... scare scare wor...

Friday afternn

2004-10-15T13:57:00.000+08:00

hihi~ sry long time nv update wor.. kind of lazy..

nowadays alot of ppl fever sia.... ziyu den mich den my sis also abit.. chain fever?
aiyo.. also dunno wad to write. anyway.... YEA NO MORE IDEA LIAO!~ muahahhas!~ yesterday did my presentation le... hahahs!~ now just left my OC individual presentation le...

later gt cell wor.. at ahpa's place (edgefield.. punggol there).. 3.30pm.. but will hv very few ppl.. mich fever cannot go.. think ziyu also.. den she also need to study. Russell gt yfc stuff to settle so also nt going... chinn yee gt skin centre appointment at 3 also cant make it.. like tat.... sian man!~ rasmus rastus melissa also dunno goin or nt.. later end up onli me there. wa... den totally sian diao liao.

just now leg cramp sia...... so damn pain.... now still can feel it....

me suppose to go nvs de... take photo of planes for my OC presentation... but mich also nt in sch .. later i alone there.. so sian. den also woke up late.. when mich called me at 1245. cos last nite playing GB wif my classmates (wa... tat cheewei really dunno how to play sia...).. play until 4am den slp. muahahahas~

Den last nite meet my lao pa for dinner... had ChiLi CrAb... muahahhaas! shiok man!~ YuMmm~

miss DadDi lAtiff n MicH sO muCh~

Sims2

2004-10-11T23:09:00.000+08:00

hihi~ today me very notti... pon first lesson, thermofluids lecture. not onli tat... i asked daniel to pei me not to go. =P. den i reach sch at 1pm lo.. for the autoCAD lesson.

AutoCAD lesson... as usual.. booorrriinnnggggg........ n getting harder n harder to do. haiz.. hate 2D assembly. so chim!~

Went off at 5 sharp.. took bus home wif Daniel.. as usual. n as usually quiet on the bus as well. dunno he will get bored by me or nt.. cos me nt used to chatting on bus de.. after so many yrs of travelling alone to sch.. when on bus or train alone.. it will be kind of a solo time, a time of reflection for me. nO reflection? DeN slp lor.. well.. he's kind of quiet too.. think same case as me ba.. used to it le. Den wif me.. was my A1 panel, printed out.

Mich called me. =)

Reached amk central.. den i went to popular to buy a backing for my A1 panel. (teacher so fussy) Den saw my sis... so went shop shop abit, n bought Sims2. She got hooked to it the moment she reach home. Den i was busy mounting the panels to the board lor. sian.. still hv to bring the big thing to sch...

yea.. so to end off.. wan to give a quote to all.. "To forgive is the hardest thing one can do.. but it is also the best thing that one can give." So mich.. will u forgive me? I've forgiven u.. just like God who forgive us off all our Sins.

argh!!

2004-10-10T00:10:00.000+08:00

very tired.. n slpy.. n angry! cant mich just be tat little more understanding?! how nice of her to remind me of the price of the 5566 album!! den i gt kind of pissed of n typed in big caps. den she gt angry. wth man... say sry to her liao. she dun wan to accept. den FINE LA! damn angry n sad now. as if i really mean to like tat. aRGH! no mood to talk also. den sis downloading some damn thing.. laggin the damn comp. angry! off it! arGH! things r just pissing me off... onli which mich wouldnt be so childish at times. onli wish mich wouldnt be so petty, n onli wish she can be more understanding! sometimes really feel like living in the world just to make her happy.. everything giving in to her!

diZzY @_@

2004-10-08T04:30:00.000+08:00

*yaWn*.... eyes r closing le.. finally done wif the editing of the IDEA autoCAD drawing as well as the A1 panels. This things r already causing me to hv dis the 3rd nite awake for it le. Can really feel my body breaking down after each day of real insufficient rest. Need more water.. can feel my body turning weaker.

Finally i'm done wif the drawing... finally.. autoCAD just isnt fun.... think my eyes degrees r going to increase..... can kind of... feel it. haiz.... waiting for the mail to get through wif sending to seetoh the files....

Morning was kind of sad.... daddi forgot to gib me the morning call.. (well tat's him huh..well at least he remembered later n smsed me..). but i managed to wake up too... well.. was hving a real weird dream abt daddi. hahas. yea... tat's y i could wake up on time. Thank God for tat... but... i kind of screwed up the presentation.. Mainly cos the mind kind of.. blacked out. couldnt think well.. den forgot wat i wanted to say. but.. aiya wat the heck. OC is going to be the onli module tat i can dun hope to get A de... n the grp one was 30%.. individual 40%. Just hope i dun screw up tat one.

Well.. the mail is still trying to send all the attachments over... the gmail dun seem to wan to send the files over.. now trying to use hotmail to send. boRinG!~ yAwN!~ whole body aching sia..

well my plans for later? wake up at erm... 1pm? den slowly make my way.. meet eugene for him to pass me his CLT form. den go sch n find my dear dear daddi.... pass the form to him. think tml he will be busy too.. den at nite... dinner wif him? most probably.. den maybe stay in sch... see wad i can do to help lo...

the gmail dunnno doing wad sia.... at first say the action cannt be performed... den after i tried to send file by file? den realised tat they got send the mail wif the 9 attachments over. wth man........ waste my time.

ok la...... dun nag over here liao.... if nt dis entry is going to go on n on n on n on.......... mIsS alot of ppl..... all at the "miss you" list. hahas!

ya.... wif more things added to my "clicks" area.... can noe wad's happening in my life more too. hahas!

oh ya..... took a pic today.. wif cheewei n daniel.. think mich n chinnyee is going to be so jealous when they see the pic.. cos me n daniel was standing kind of.. close. hahas! when gt the pic le den post it up. ok la.. the mail hv been sent... n i can go to slp le.... niTex!

(typed for 20 mins...)

yJ OpEn Hse

2004-10-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

basically dis is gonna be a short one... very very tired n slpy now... hvnt slpt since last nite 10.30. oMg... awake for more den 24hrs le. getting headache liao... haiz.

well basically... morning gt mech lab test.. it's kind of.. dun seem like test like tat de... we secretly discussing ans, the lab tech n lecturer also give ans. hahas.

ok.. den afternoon went north view wait for mich darling.. den we head off to yj. Kind of disappointing to not be able to see any S01 ppl at the court. all doing ushering. well.. den on the way to find bev saw sharon.. den hugged her. hahas. den see bev le.. hug bev. n chia too. hehes. really miss them. but kind of boring there cos onli follow bev they all ard yj.. n hot too. but after tat played bball... so.. still ok la. one sad thing is..... THEY SAY I FAT LIAO!! jialat jialat.. hahas.

den after tat went back nvs to meet daddi.. sry bev n chia for nt joining u all for dinner. ya.. i reach nvs le.. den help daddi do amaths solution... really jialat.. already brain dead. den alot of things forget.. do also dunno correct or not. but nvm la... :)
After tat went to talk to maam raps.. den memoring my OC speech.. until headache... really jialat.. den we go for late dinner... well.. the rest.. the usual la...

ok la... can feel my body breaking down liao.... just dun feel rite... gd nitez

IDEA IDEA

2004-10-05T23:48:00.000+08:00

sry nowadays nv update tat much... cos kind of busi wif the IDEA... n test all coming up. n now... no mood to start working on my IDEA...

well.. i kind of gt worried for daddi when i heard tat he's so stressed-up.. gt so many things he need to do n so many deadlines to meet... n need to wake up so early to collect the n level paper frm MOE.. haiz. but nvm la... it will all be done very soon.. n he will be back to the joyful daddi again. ;) miss him n luv him so much!~

just heard frm siming tat she gt food poisoning wor... worry for her too. food poisoning sure isn't fun...frm sat till now... poor thing..

really looking forward to tml... can see my beverly dear le!~ yea!! miss her soooooooooo much. den can hug my darling mich liao. hehes. n of cos my beverly dear.. miss sharon also!~ yea tml also can see her liao. really miss all my yj frends!~

"Lord i pray.. tat u will give me, daddi latiff, ahPa Chan, Daniel, michelle n beverly wisdom n strength to study, n to meet all the deadlines tat we need to meet Lord. Lord i pray for healing upon Siming, tat Lord u will heal her of her food poisoning.. for Lord.. u R a healer. Lord i pray for protection over all of us, protection over ur blood of the lamb o LorD. In Jesus name i pray.. Amen."

after so much laugh.

2004-10-02T01:21:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i stare to the comp n laugh le. was hving conference wif daddi, mumi raps n eugene on the msn.. real fun sia. even when mich call me... i just gt straight to the point, den ask her to talk to me abt the rest tml.. cos i cant wait to get back to the conversation. very bad hor.. but.. hahas. n even cant leave the comp to go bathe... now den just bathed. opps.

feel kind of sad for the week to pass so fast.. cos it means..... IDEA PROJ NEED TO HAND IN VERY SOON LIAO!! very stress ar..... still thinking how to make the A1 panel... den still got OC presentation. grp one hvnt even hv rehersal yet.. dun think the ppt is even out yet. den still gt the individual one... dunno where to start. aRgH!! end of week coming liao...... how how how???!!! sat... sure no time to do de. Sunday? dunno la!

but dis wk is kind of.. gd. mainly becos of wednesday la.. n today also. hugged daddi again when he sent me back hm. :)

kind of sad tat onli my beverly dear, yaling, n pris ask me who is the one me missing.. :(
surprisingly.... DaNiEl WrOTe mE a TeStiMoniAL. hahas. tot he will be so lazy to write. well daniel, thks for the testi.. hehes.

ok la.. i go orh orh le.. meeting mich for breakfast.. cant wake up den kanna blast by her liao. n need to get breakfast for daddi also.

tHe SuN seTs.. n TeLeTubbiEs saY gd ByE! eH oH!~

ziyu, mummi raps, daddi latiff, myself, n michelle

Missing you...

2004-09-30T17:03:00.000+08:00

today whole day feel to terrible... my heart felt so heavy.. dunno why also. really miss him... miss the hug.... it's been a real long time since the last time i felt my heart so heavy... as if it's sinking. but why?? I do not noe... missing somebody is really terrible...

feeling kind of sick now... wan to puke.. thanks to the stupid bus driver.. dunno how to drive the bus one.

dunno wat i'm feeling.. dunno wat i'm thinking.. whole day just moving ard wif my heavy heart...

BiG HuG!!

2004-09-29T23:38:00.000+08:00

MoRnIng was kind of boring, n tired also. since last nite, eyes itching till now.. however.. afternoon till nite... was gd.

I reached north view at ard 2pm.. den saw michelle.. n hugged her. hahas. den got to noe who is jason.. i was like.. ooo tat guy ar.. see b4. but in my heart was kind of... HuH! TaT gUy aR!! den saw brenda... long time nv see her liao wor... den hugged her also. hahas. after tat we went to find daddi latiff.. miss him so much. he taught mich some maths qn den we need to rush of to cell liao.. den i yue him for dinner lo.

So.. we (me, mich, chinn yee, jiawei) took a cabby to mdm lee's hse. costed us 90cents each wor. Today's cell was kind of..... stressful, n very little ppl also. hahas. ah pa made us confess ur sins n ask for forgiveness frm each other. there wasnt much sharing of the word of God.. just daddy shard something frm the book of Daniel. (when the few of us heard the word "daniel" den we start looking at each other... lolx). after the cell, me n mich hugged ah pa for the first time. hehes. he so nice to hug.. got a very strong feeling like hugging father like tat. but he's kind of... tall. lolx! when hug him my face onli can reach his chest. lolx. den after tat hugged ah ma also. den mich confessed her "stuff" to ahpa n ahma.. ahma was like... okay.. but ahpa was like... HUH?! like a hammer kanna his head like tat. lolx!. den ahpa drove me back to sch to meet daddi (the rest went off to eat on their own), after me saying bye to mich (hugged.. n mich kissed me.. hahaS) n ziyu (me hugged her.. hahas)

den reach sch liao daddi was like "aiyo.. me very hungry ar.." hehes. but later ended sitting in his car for like 5 mins deciding where to eat. since i got no opinion, we went ragtime. but also dunno y today i also feel like going there. hahas!. Ordered spagetti aglio olio (or watever u spell it).. it was kind of too spicy for me so i also nv eat much.. but was still quite full (think cos of the wedges ba.. it was gd.. lolx). after tat we went back to sch for the nite study thingy (me told ziyu tat i will go back to teach her physics... really worry for her..). kind of tired after tat.. cos need to recall all my sec4 stuff... den need to think of ways to teach her so tat she will understand. After tat, daddi send us (me, ziyu, leehoon) hm lo.. hees. after sending the 2 of them, he went to feed his car, den at the mart was like.. "u wan anything? ice cream?". hehes. he so cute. :P. den when reach my blk liao.. daddi released his seat belt n said "so i'll be missing u for a few days liao lo..... come give me a hug". hees! so hugged him (hees finally hugged him liao).. so nice to hug also. kekes. now already missing the hug le... heEz!~

well so practically.... this whole day was just hugging, hugging n more hugging. hehes!

AutoCaD Lesson

2004-09-27T15:43:00.000+08:00

sian.... the most boring n tiring lesson of the day. haizZz.. 4hrs of staring into the comp leh!! eyes so tired... just woke up.. hahas. just now teacher talk crap den i slp. Missing so many ppl... Miss Michelle, miss daddy latiff... *soBz* I waN tO gO hOmE!!!! later still got a 20mins online test.. 20mcq. SiaN sIaN siAn... 1 more hr to go... :(

~Daddy Latiff n Me~

Wedding dinner

2004-09-27T01:15:00.000+08:00

yesterday... AhPa AhMa's wedding dinner.. actually didnt get to go de... but ah pa suddenly called me at 4.30pm like tat... den say he lost the lyrics tat i printed for him the other time (song: wo yuan yi) n he needed it for the dinner. so he ask me if i could print out again n pas it to him, den since i'm there, might as well go for the dinner so lor. chinn yee, ziyu n michelle was so jealous! hahas. ya den i was thinking.. hmm how to get there ar? DinG!!! gt idea.. den i sms daddy latiff... ask him to fetch me there. hehes.

before ah pa called me... i was so damn boRed! called michelle.. den was like.. screaming into the fone cos of boreness.

we got to the hotel abit late cos wasnt really sure how to go there. raining somemore. reach there le den faster find ah pa n pass him the lyrics lo. den took afew photo wif ah pa n ah ma. got one solo wif ahma onli de.. she was saying.. "the rest sure very jealous when they see dis!". hahas!

I sat at table 21.. wif the church ppl.. wif ms keh, sista elsie, sista angela, sista poh yok, etc. saw ps seng lee also (spiritual grandfather.. hahas!). wif ms keh around, i felt tat ur table was the noisiest. hahas! during the mid of the dinner, ahpa's brothers sabo him. they put mayonise all over his face.. n guess wat? aH mA hAVE to licK it oFF!! hahaS!

at the end of it, gt to shake hands wif ahpa ahma n their parents. den at this time, i hugged ahma. hehe! she look so different today.. so pretty... just like yesterday. ahpa look so cute n handsome. hahas. well, den daddy latiff send me home lo.. but sad =( cannot hug daddy. nvm la.. still got lots of other chance. hehe!

~Cell Grp Family~

WeDdInG DaY!!!

2004-09-26T01:40:00.000+08:00

harlow!~ just a few hrs ago was ahpa ahma's wedding!!! finally! hahas.
Den morning as usual, got training. Kind of scolded by mich cos i suppose to meet her earlier but woke up late. but i still got there on time la.. just nice to see daddy go off for the orienteering competition. Everything went on quite smoothly today (mui duty officer ma). but onli one thing... the stupid plane again! haiz.. really no fate to fly. in the ops rm, both planes works. but when go to the field, the thing dun wan to work liao. bAsKEt! den eugene came, keep on trying n trying, n managed to start once. but cos the control line nt connected to the plane, hv to cut of the engine. den later? cAnNoT sTaRt lE!!! ArGH! den richard came to try, still cannot. den no choice lo..

At 11, training ends.. (cos we need to go off to the wedding). den me n mich fast go north point get one more present. aftertat? rush home lor... faster change den rush out to meet mich n the rest go to the church le. The ceromony was really nice... Ah Pa cried.. kind of lazy to describe out the whole event la. all i can say is.. ahpa n ahma look real gd n happy today. maY GoD bE wiF thEm togEthEr fOr tHE ReSt oF thEiR LiveS.

around 5 like tat, den we go off le. den i sms daddy, ask him where he going... den haiz!!!! basket kanna bluff by mummy raps cos he reply for daddy. make me feel so sad n guilty. dun feel like saying the whole thing again le... just now really no mood...
Den daddy noe lo... den me mich n ziyu, wif daddy go for dinner together at j8. mich ziyu n i also took neoprints! so haPpY!! finally first time we can take neoprints together le.. (oh ya.. also dunno y suddenly start calling michelle as dear. hahas!)

so... here i am le. hehes. MiSs eVerYbODy sO mUCh.. especially daddy n michelle. hehes. ya lo... ok la.. brain dead le.. hahas. luv u all!~ niTeZz

MysElf, SiMiNg & YaLiNg

LuV yoU All

2004-09-24T23:44:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. see my tagboard den kanna said i nv update my blog. aiya... i lazy ma.. den nth to write abt also.
Well.. today i slp until 11plus like tat... slpt for 13hrs. hahas. had to repay my slp dept ma... the previous nite nv slp at all!! thanks to the IDEA thingy again. hate it man!! so useless... onli teach us how to come out wif new things, squeezing my creativity juice dry ar. as if next time i wan to invent out new things and sell it to the market like tat!~ haiz. just hope this semester faster end den no more IDEA liao.

Around 12plus, ah pa n ah ma came to take ah pa's shoe, the one tat he will be wearing for his wedding. I took it to polish n kind of repaired it for him. hees. Their comments? "WOW! Look like new. Ah Pa scared he will dirty it. Well done!" hehes. well.. hv to make it look new ma.. wedding day leh.. onli once in ur life. cant make it look like he's wearing old shoes rite. think u all will be wondering, why he dun wan to buy new shoes rite? well, actually he brought one.. but he tried to wear it, end up making him limp. so as his dear daughter, i volunteered to help him polish his old one lo. help him look his BEST for his wedding.

After that, i went to yishun to meet priscilla, lydia n michelle to buy the wedding present. we went to precious tots, n brought him a scroll (wedding cert holder) wif a stand. Plus a wedding card also.. n tml me n michelle will be getting something else also. cos not very nice for 13 ppl to share just tat one present ma. ya.. the thing is now wif lydia. hahas.

Den i went to sch lo... y? cos my daddy latiff miss me! hahas. den i help prepare some stuff for tml's training n for the orienteering competition. plus talk awhile wif ms soh lo.. n as usual, talk crap wif my darling michelle. hahas. after tat go for dinner wif daddy n mummy raps, somewhere along sembawang road. the fish n chips was so small!! but lucky i also not hungry, so it's kind of just nice. it is den that i realised that daddy got come n read my blog!! O my God. hahas! so pai sey. lolx. still dun hv a pic of my n daddy.. one day must so take one. hahas.

ya after tat, went back to school, den mummy raps send me home. den i went to read my tagboard lo.. den went to see beverly dear's blog, n sharon dear's blog too. haiz... feel kind of sad to see my friends so stressed out. my 2 yj frends... miss them so much! they r feeling so stressed, n troubled.. but yet i cant do anything abt it... haiz...

well.. "Lord father i pray that u will bless ah pa n ah ma for their wedding tml. i pray that everything will go on fine, in the glory of u lord. i pray for protection upon them, so that the evil one will stay away from them, so they will be able to be at their best on their most special day of their life. I also pray that all the guest will be able to be there on time, n tat things will nt get delayed. Lord father i also pray for beverly, chialing, and sharon, tat u will give them the strength n wisdom to help them through their promos, n that they will be able to do well, n i pray that u will help to remove the stress frm them lord. i pray for blessings to be over them. Lord i also pray for Michelle n Ziyu, tat u will also give them the strength n wisdom as they study for their end of yr exam, n 0 lvls. i pray that u all give all of them the confidence tat they need, n tat they will be able to get wat they earn through their hard work. Lord Father also pray for pastor khong, that u will bless him, n help him to get through all the obstacles tat is stopping him frm spreading ur word o Lord. Father i also pray for blessings n protection to be a upon myself, Daniel, Chimn yee, n all ur daughter n sons. In Jesus name i pray, Amen!~"

Good nite ppl!~ tml still got ncc training. heeZz.

Suei day...

2004-09-18T23:15:00.000+08:00

harloW~~ hahas. today kinda tiring day... morning woke up by michelle's morning call.... den I knOCkEd mY heAd... *soBx* still very pain sia..... haiz. den went for ncc training wif my painful forehead lor... den forgot to bring head dress... totally sian diao liao. go sch training... plane engine when testing, works. but when wan to fly, den cannot start liao. *BiG sIgH* cannot fly plane again.......

den daddy latiff took afew of u out for lunch at swensens, celebrating Weiqin's belated bdae. when we reach there, we saw rasmus n rastus. today is their bdae. so end up..... plus daddy himself, he hv to pay for 12 ppl. poor him.. total was $126!! he eat finish, pay le, den went back to his UG conference at OCC liao.

den we went to shop awhile at precious thots (now den i noe north point hv), n i went off to meet ziyu to go over to marine parade liao. but on the way there, ah pa say he nt feeling well, cell cancel. so me n ziyu go parkway shop shop n eat abit of stuff first lo, den head off to church le.

Finally, i get to hear senior pastor khong preach since the time at suntec. today topic was "live in the light of the vision". so he shared wif us the church vision "to serve the nations". den at the ending of the service, ah pa was prayed for by ps khong.. he told him "go n serve the nations". hahas. den ah pa was like... siao liao siao liao.. senior pastor's word.. cannot dun do liao. hahas.

n so... now i'm here typing dis thing le.. hahahahas. going off to do the IDEAs A3 sketch liao. BuaIbuaI

oNe usUaL daY

2004-09-17T23:58:00.000+08:00

as the usual friday,... i went back to nvs again. no sch ma... hahas. den when i reached north point... went ard looking for donuts for mich. hahas. our Miss Donut.. ya... den i reach sch, mich n ziyu was playing bball... so joined them, den more n more ppl came. we started to play full court.. XiOnG mAn!! too long nv play liao.. play until i can feel my lungs contracting due to lack of air.. n keep on yawning cos lack of CO2. but overall...not bad la.

After tat, went to Ops Rm to rot liao.. hahas. den start to play arms drills wif the dummy rifles again.. (wed also). after tat, rasmus n rastus wan to fly plane. thou it was nt raining (when i wan to fly sure rain de), the field was locked, open space nt big enuff cos line too long, glow plug starter no batt, n cant find power point for the prop starter. haiz... so didnt fly lor.

MiCh paNg SeY me again!~ she went off before me... going hm wif JiaWei even thou Daddy latiff offer to send her home. so me alone, went for dinner wif daddy lo.. guess where we went? RaGtIme!! his all time favourite joint. also dunno why leh... i wonder. the food to me.. nt very nice. choice rather limited.. onli all kinds of pasta. but.. daddy like can liao.. hehes.

Eat until very full liao..den go amk central meet my mummy n jie for shopping. n finally managed to transfer $20 to christine thru atm for my 5566 album preorder. so we bought 2 polo tee (gio dry tech red n pink).. plus 2 gio huggies. very cute de. hahas.

Yea so tat's one of my usual day of the week.. hehes. now for the pray:
"Lord Father in Heaven... i pray to u tat u will bless all my brothers n sisters of Christ. thank you for today.. for everything going so smoothly, n a big thanks for healing mich, yeemin, n daniel of their sickness oh Lord. I pray for Ziyu.. tat the protection by the blood of the lamb will be on her, n tat u will heal her of the fever tat she got today. give her n wisdom n strength to press on studying for her o's. i also pray for Michelle, tat u will give her the sense of urgency to study for her end of yr exams, n tat u will give her the wisdom too to be able to understand wat is being taught. Lord i also pray for AhPa n AhMa, tat u will continue to be wif them as they get busier in their work, ministry, n wedding. I pray tat all things will go off well so tat they will be able to settle everything for their wedding. continue to bless us o Lord.. i pray all dis in the mighty name of Jesus... Amen.~"

~Michelle n Me~

TiReD tiReD

2004-09-14T23:55:00.000+08:00

really very tired n slpy now.... last nite study until 3pm den slp... *yaWn* well... today i gt back my mechanics test..50/50. hahas. first thing i do? i smsed ah pa. heez. he was so happy... replied "wa!! solid Gerak!". hahas. thank God for the wisdom he had given me. den during lunch break, half the class went to play badminton. so long nv play liao man... but learnt how to count the score in the proper manner. 2 games i played wif little khong on the same team. poor him.. playing the back... den kanna run left to right.

Just now... michelle was talking to daniel khong on msn. i see their conversation it was like... so dIaOz. both of them so lame n bhb. hahas.

ok la... before i end off... "lord i pray tat u will bless all my brothers n sisters of Christ for a gd nite rest tonight. i also pray tat u will continue to give ah pa n ah ma the strength n stamina to continue to preservere as they get on busy wif work, ministry, n wedding stuff. Lord i also pray for yee min, michelle, n daniel, tat u will remove the sickness frm their physical body, for Lord Jesus u are able to heal. thank you for this day tat u hv made for me. in jesus name i pray, amen."

Good nite frends, everyone, n the Father in heaven.

2nD EnCounTeR WeEkEnD

2004-09-12T23:28:00.000+08:00

very tired n slpy now... after many nites of insufficent slp n rest, n 2 full days of encounting God to the fullest. Nevertheless, still wan to talk abt the encounter first before i go do my homework n slp.

During my 1st encounter, i missed the session on 'Father's Love'. so dis time, God ministered to me greatly during this session. He showed me his love for me, as pastor chua n pastor jo prayed for me. I could see myself seeing God in a distant, running towards me on the plain empty greenland, n hugged me. It's just like a father so glad n running towards his long lost daughter. Thank God for letting me feel so so much of His love for me.

Today was Ah Pa's b'dae. i wanted to do something special, a surprise for him. den suddenly, got dis tot of going to the front, n asking everyone to sing him a birthday song. so i went to talk to PS Chua abt it, n got his encouragement. stress started to build up in me as i think more of how to talk in front of everybody. den PS Jo start to address to all of us.. PS Chua was nt ard. she started to ask ppl out for thanks giving. after one person, i stood up, n went to the front. "I wan to thank God for my cell leader. n today, is his special day, as it is his birthday, ...". den i invited ah pa to the front. as he insisted to have his name called out, n after being so used to calling him ah pa n not mr chan, i went on to call him his full name. Mistake. kana said by PS Jo for some kind of nt respecting him. but... already very stress liao ma. well, i went on, asking everyone to sing him a birthday song, n we present to him his birthday present (the photo album). then PS Jo ask me to pray a blessing for him. i was like... HUH!? totally shocked. nevertheless... i tried my best, for the first time, praying aloud in front of everyone wif the mic. thank God for it running so smoothly.. thou it is kinda short. too stress to continue liao. but it was a really gd experience tat God has given me.. n the many assurance of my pray by the crowd. really thank God for it. however, being always bothered by wat i hv not done well.. i was very bothered by my mistake of calling ah pa's full name. well... wat to do... just tried my very best to push it aside.

today's ministy was also a total new experience to me. i could feel my thrist for the Lord very much greater den the 1st enc. as the holy spirit filled me, i just gave all out to God, as i allowed God to do his works. Kanna dun feel like talking abt it.. but one thing.. for the first time, n as i had asked God for it, is to let me fall in the presence of him. so i fell... ya. well.. the later part was better. seeing ppl fall one by one as pastors prayed for him, anoiting them wif the olive oil, i told God again... i wan to fall. den pastor chua came to me.. i smile at him, n he smile back, n said "i shall now pray for my favourite ger". in my heart was like... wa............ paradise. lolx. well.. den before he could complete his 2nd sentence of the pray, i fell liao. thank God.. hahas... as i enjoyed the joy in his presence.

It was a real different experience. but throughout all of it, i had a vision of coming in as a guide the next enc. n frm the first pray to me by pastor jo, n the others tat followed, most of them talked abt God wanting to use me as his mighty warrior as a grow to be a leader. so.. well.. trying my best to grow fast in the Lord, experiencing him n so many diff ways.

time to do my autoCAD hmwk liao... falling aslp. *yaWn*

*thank You Lord for the many great things u hv done in me, praise u Lord*

~Pastor SengLee n Me~

The First Post...

2004-09-11T02:24:00.000+08:00

after seeing so many of u hving ur own blog...... i've come now to rebuild one more new blog for myself. hahas.

actually.... i should be slping now. i just got down frm mt ophir yesterday morning.. n got back to s'pore in the evening. n later... i'm going off for encounter weekend. very shack liao. "shack" is a new word tat i hv learnt thru my 4 days expedition to mt ophir, up to the summit for the 2nd time. hahas. very tired.... n to think that i hv to meet the rest later at 6.45am. *yaWn*

now also listening to the church service online. the one tat i missed because of ncc day dinner. "having a greatful heart" by the senior pastor, cum my classmate father, apostle lawrence khong. abit crazy, but... thank God. i always hv been feeling uneasy missing this service... so... thank God for letting me finding the link to the audio. :D

very tired now.... so... talk abt my 2nd ophir trip some other time.